New but not really

[Katelyn]

Hello there, 

 

I go by the name Katelyn, but only to those that know about this side of me, only when dressed and mostly only and a character name in games I play. 

 

I tagged myself as a cross dresser because it feels like the right tag for where I am at eight now,  but I have this jealousy of cis girls, these mental "if only" moments in which I want nothing more than to be a woman. 

 

I was a member of Lauras-playground.com some time ago and just went through a few stages and notions in my life that slowly pulled me away. Funny how you feel like you've found yourself and you're accepting this side you have, then suddenly you go back to being partially happy with being a man. Then a while later, bam right back to feeling confused and uncertain. 

 

Recently I decided to take down my big box of lady like items and get dressed. If only I knew what the rest of the night had in store for me... A story for another thread. 

 

Anyhow, I look forward to meeting and talking to everyone. 

 

Thank you for reading. 

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome back, Katelyn.  I'm glad you've returned, and I hope that you participate in these discussion boards often.  We'll be here for you.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[MaryEllen]

Welcome back  Katelyn.

 

MaryEllen

[Charlize]

Good to see you Katelyn.  I certainly remember putting my "lady things" away only to take them out again.  This journey with gender is an interesting one that often seems to take a different course.  Hope to hear more of you journey.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[Katelyn]

Hi ladies, 

 

Thank you for welcoming me back. I will try to participate when I can. I recently signed my contract for a new job and resigned from my current so I will be busy learning the ropes and adjusting for a while which may rob me of time.

 

Exciting times ahead though. Next step in my career is to change from an IT technician to a motorcycle sales person. 

 

This gender that doesn't feel a certain way solidly all the time kinda boggles the mind. I will definitely be putting all that and some questions on the forum. 

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Katelyn,

Welcome back. Many of us have set aside the girl (or boy if f2m) for a time for one reason or another. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf?

[Jani]

Hello Katelyn and welcome back!  Its quite common to go through stages of ebb and flow.  Sounds like you didn't purge your clothing.  Thats good.  Don't be alarmed about the strength or lack of your feelings about your gender.  we are all different and no life path is wrong. 

 

Best of luck in your new job.  What brand of motorcycles are you involved with?  I recently sold my Suzuki 1100 so I'm without.  

 

Cheers, Jani

[Katelyn]

Yes, when previously I was a member of Lauras-playground I read often about either the regret of purging or advise against it, which helped me decide to rather store for now. Fortunately the things were also expensive in totality so I felt it would be silly to just throw it away or donate it. Sadly I gained some weight since last I wore my things. Good time to look for more bike appropriately clothing though. Dresses and skirts don't quite agree. 

 

I ride a 2016 Honda VFR 800 F. I believe it's known in some countries as an interceptor 800 F? Maybe it's better to say I used to ride since she's at a tow yard now and I don't know if she'll make it back or be written off yet. Anyhow, I'm starting at a BMW motard dealership soon. I am looking forward to it. If I could, I would buy myself a Kawasaki Ninja ZX6R. The bike I like the most personally. 

[Jani]

Yes that would be the Interceptor.  I'm sorry to hear of your accident and that your machine might not make it.  I've ridden a number of Beemers and enjoy them.  I hope you enjoy your new job.   The mid-size Ninja is a good bike, nimble and quick! 

 

Jani

[Katelyn]

Right? Let us not forget it is also sexy. The bigger they get, the bulkier they look and I don't like that. Thus why the 600 specifically. The 1000 is still okay but it doesn't look quite as nice in my opinion. 

 

In a way I hope to get my bike back though. She's pearl white, rides comfortably long distance and, well, she's mine. Named her Katsumi. Closest name I could find that apparently means Victorious Beauty in Japanese. 

 

BMW makes se good bikes but those headlights... Why?!