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Lydia Barnes

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Hello, all,

 

 I’m 58, a husband and a father.  I’ve been a closeted cross dresser since before puberty.  It was episodic for most of my life, but the desire to dress, to live as a woman seems to be growing stronger.  The episodes last longer and become more frequent.  

 

I feel no desire for hormones or surgery, though.  In many, in fact, in most ways, I am very comfortable as a man.

 

My wife knows and is uncomfortable with my cross dressing.  She has accepted, even slightly encourages a low level

of consistent underdressing, but does not even want to contemplate, much less accept anything more.

 

Frankly, my relationships with my wife and daughter are stronger, at least for now, than my desire to dress full time.  As long as that is true, I am content with the status quo.

 

i hope that in these pages, I can, at least, confer with like-minded or accepting people.

 

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Hi Lydia, welcome to transPulse. Many of us have gone through the same things as you describe, and you are among a very caring and

supportive community of wonderful people. The wisdom and insights of the people here have helped me in more ways that I can count.

Just now, Lydia Barnes said:

 

Frankly, my relationships with my wife and daughter are stronger, at least for now, than my desire to dress full time.

I fully understand that statement. My love for my wife and children was the only thing that kept me from coming out. My wife was not supportive at all, so I am glad that your wife is somewhat supportive of your crossdressing.

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Hello Lydia,

 

Welcome to TransPulse. Thank you for sharing with us. :)

 

MaryEllen

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Hi Lydia, 

welcome to the forums! I am a pretty new user here, but the people here are great! They have some of the best advice I’ve gotten from anywhere. 

Kirsten

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Hello Lydia and welcome!  

3 hours ago, Lydia Barnes said:

I feel no desire for hormones or surgery, though.  In many, in fact, in most ways, I am very comfortable as a man.

It sounds like you are at a pretty good place mentally about your crossdressing and that is good.  

 

That your spouse is uncomfortable is understandable but as you note she is somewhat supporting.  As long as you understand her boundaries and you are OK with this you will be all right.  Things can get tricky when we start to push the envelope and our spouse/SO/partner are opposed.   Maintaining the status quo is not necessarily a bad thing!  

 

Please join in the conversation, we'd love to hear more from you.

 

Jani

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Hi Lydia

 

Welcome to the forum. You will find many like minded people here. Just jump in!

 

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Hi Lydia,

Welcome to TransPulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

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