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Michelle_Anne

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I’m a 45 married male that’s been doing a lot of questioning about sexuality in recent years.  Most of this time I have identified myself as a BI male.  I a closeted with the exception of a few close female friends and a former gay coworker. 

 

Going back to my early teenage years off and on I have had feelings of wanting to feel feminine.  These feelings have come and gone even up till now.  I’ve never really thought much about it and sometimes I had just shrugged it off as fantasies.  A while back I had joined a LGBT forum to try and surround myself more with the BI community.  One night just for the heck of it I peeked into the transgender forum.  I started reading a lot of the posts and thinking more about things.  The more I looked into it and the more research I started doing the more I started to realize being a female is how I want to feel.  It literally scared the crap out of me.  But that didn’t stop me from wanting to learn more.   The first big step for me was joining this site.  Going forward I just want to be surrounded with support.  It would nice to make some new friends here that I can learn from and grow with. 

 

Anyways I’m glad I found this forum and I’m looking forward to getting to know everyone!

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Hello and welcome.  Learning about ourselves is an important step on the path to self discovery.  Take it slow, read and ask questions.  We're here to support you.

 

Jani

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Welcome.  Take your time and try to enjoy your life as it comes.Finding ourselves and facing what we see can be quite a process.  

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Welcome to Trans Pulse, LE.  Yes, it can be scary and daunting when you realize that you might be trans, especially when you've come to the realization after living half a life.  You're going about this the right way; looking into therapy, joining groups like this one, learning all you can.

 

We'll help in any way we can, and I promise we won't push you in any particular direction.  This journey is yours, and no one elses.  I wish you all the best.

 

HUGS

 

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Hi Limitededition,

Welcome to TransPulse. I'm glad you've found us!

 

I had hidden from who I am for years. It was scary, no, terrifying for me when I realised I was trans. I spent about a month trying to find proof that I wasn't. But over time with the help and support of others I became much more comfortable with my gender identity and being trans. I hope you find your answers and comfort in who you are. We are here to help as we can. You are not alone!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

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On 10/12/2018 at 5:32 PM, Timber Wolf said:

Hi Limitededition,

Welcome to TransPulse. I'm glad you've found us!

 

I had hidden from who I am for years. It was scary, no, terrifying for me when I realised I was trans. I spent about a month trying to find proof that I wasn't. But over time with the help and support of others I became much more comfortable with my gender identity and being trans. I hope you find your answers and comfort in who you are. We are here to help as we can. You are not alone!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

Thank you to everyone for all your support I’m sure soon the questions will start flowing.  I did find out my insurance covers therapy.  That was a nerve racking call asking about that. Fortunately I was able to go my employers EAP. 

Like you Timber I have been trying to prove that I’m not trans.  But these feeling of what I want to be are very real and do not go away.  

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