New to all of this

[Emillie Lane]

i really suck at introductions...

 

My name is Emillie Lane. i'm a 38-year-old stay-at-home mother. i came out to most of my family, and close friends on July 3rd of this year. Before that, i'd been struggling both with admitting it to myself, as well as trying to figure out how to move forward. My therapist has known for a year, or so, but she's not the greatest therapist (she's what i can afford). Thankfully, my immediate family have all been extremely supportive. They, and my friend's responses were pretty much "Well, that explains a lot," or "It's about damn time." The only ones left to tell are my parents, and i already have a good idea of how that will go. They're both very conservative, very religious, and very vocal about transgender people and LGBT+ topics in general. i'm waiting until after Christmas, so my daughter can have at least one more before they disown me (seriously).

 

i have a variety of other mental illnesses that make transitioning a bit trying. On top of those, there are years of self-esteem issues to try to work through. Suffice it to say that it's hard to see myself as anything other than a homely, masculine woman. On the plus side (maybe), i've only been on HRT for a few months, and i'm already seeing some physical changes.

i'm hoping to find information on a variety of topics here. Everything from "How the hell do i put on makeup?" to "How do i deal with [X] issue?" But mostly i'm wanting to associate with others like me. Agoraphobia makes it impossible to go to a local support group, so finding a community online is my only option right now.

[Susan R]

Welcome Emillie Lane,  it's a pleasure to meet you.  Your story rings a bell with me and will with several others here too.  We are all here for each other and hopefully we can take up some slack you're missing in therapy.  There is seemingly no end to the love and support here and there is information on just about anything you might encounter on your journey.  If not, just ask and I'm sure you'll get a quick reply from someone who knows or has also experienced it.  I'm happy you found us and I look forward to hearing more.

 

Susan R?

[Jani]

Hello Emillie and welcome.  I hope your words with your parents are accepted well.  If you search the Fashion and Beauty sub-forums you may find answers to some of your questions.  Also Youtube is a source for makeup advice but a lot of it seems to be overblown.  I just use a simple foundation with a little blush on my cheeks.  I add brow pencil color and a bit of lip gloss if I want to jazz it up.  Remember "Less is More."  

 

Please ask your questions in new post threads to get the best responses and visibility (rather than here in your Intro).   We'll do our best! 

Jani

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Emillie.  Please don't get discouraged about physical changes; its not all about the hormones, although they can play a role.  Makeup, hair (growing it where it needs to grow, and removing it where it needs to go ), clothes, and most importantly, attitude, play a more important role.  There is plenty in these forums on all of those subjects.

 

I look forward to your active participation.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Emillie,

Welcome to TransPulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

My only advice on coming out to your parents is to hope for the best and prepare for the worst. I hope they pleasantly surprise you.

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

[Charlize]

Welcome Emille Lane.

I have found the support from others here has helped me with my self esteem issues.

You are not alone.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize