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Michelle F

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Well... Per my entire life ...only now it's more than fem. It's down right biatch. 

 

Michael - an a hole

 

Michelle - the word beginning with the third letter in the alphabet.

 

Also know as a "thread killer." 

 

I'll not be commenting much. I'll j7st gl3an what I can from observation. Those that sorta befriended me, thanks! Y'all have actually help guide me. I'll find my answers alone now...

 

Bye...

Michelle

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Not sure why you posted this, but I wouldn’t worry too much about anyone else. Opinions and a-holes really. Plenty of people tell me I’m crazy, weird, annoying, opinionated, etc etc etc.  it used to get to me. No more though. I just say my piece and slide on down the road. 

Your road to this point has been one of insanity honestly. It’s opened my mind to how hard some people have to work just to survive. Don’t let anyone take all of your hard work away from you. But don’t live in it either. 70% of the world lives in the past. 20% live in the future. That leaves 10% that are here now. Staggering really. 10%!! Live for now! Love yourself. Take what you need from your past and push yourself to care about now!! 

Ps there’s nothing wrong with being a class A B!! 

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Thanks, @Kirsten! Your words mean a lot.

 

I guess my Psychiatrist sparked a few inner concepts I hadn't considered.

 

Looks like FFS is going to head the roster. If insurance will approve then I'll be scheduled.

 

I have maybe 25% of my facial hair removed so far. I wish they would allow more than one treatment per week. A postage stamp area per week is not very much and increases my dysphoria every trip. Public transportation. Never pleasant.

 

It takes awhile to complete total removal. I know that; however, stretching it out so long is tearing me apart mentally. I'm making irrational decisions and dumb mistakes! I got a jaywalking ticket again!

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O.M.G.  !

EVERYTHING has been approved!

 

First my teeth! I see my dentist again this afternoon to have my lower partials installed and first fitting for full uppers!

 

Second is scheduling Augmentation! Waiting for Dr Childers' office for scheduling

 

Third FFS! I am so stoked.

 

Last my vaginoplasty!

 

All approved!

 

I'm dancing on sunshine!

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8 hours ago, Michelle F said:

O.M.G.  !

EVERYTHING has been approved!

 

First my teeth! I see my dentist again this afternoon to have my lower partials installed and first fitting for full uppers!

 

Second is scheduling Augmentation! Waiting for Dr Childers' office for scheduling

 

Third FFS! I am so stoked.

 

Last my vaginoplasty!

 

All approved!

 

I'm dancing on sunshine!

Yay!! Congratulations!! That is great news! 

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Thanks @Ellora!

 

First, I promised myself I would lose the wigs once I was approved for Feminizing surgeries. Done!

 

Second promise is, I will continue shave my head until day of the first surgery. That will be the last day I shave...

 

Here is my most rescent pic taken yesterday!

 

 

 

no_wig_jun04_2019.jpg

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A brief update...

 

I start groin electrolysis in two weeks. After 5 treatments I see my Surgeon and either set date for vaginoplasty or more electrolysis. I don't have much hair down there anyway so I don't anticipate long.

 

My facial hair is much thinner now growing slower every week... Electrolysis is working!

 

HRT now at 18 months plus.

 

Slow but sure!

 

I now understand the meaning of...

...squeeeeee!

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You looked good in that earlier photo.  All my best for your electrolysis treatments.  Fun, I'm sure!  (NOT).  

Yes it is all exciting.  Time will fly through.

 

Cheers, Jani

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You look great gal.  I know that look of bald and beautiful quite well but rarely am without my wig.  I have actually gotten used to it over the years but i'm also finding i can accept and smile at the bald head i see at night.  

Best of luck with your upcoming surgery.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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That's great on the hair removal! The one doctor we have in this state requires you to have had electrolysis for a fripping year before he'll perform SRS. Even for someone like me with alopecia... which I am incredibly sensitive about. Though I did have a girlfriend tell me today, "Why did you cover up that beautiful bald head?"

 

Fortunately, I found a doctor who destroys the follicles as part of her procedure. Otherwise that would have been a terrible roadblock.

 

I'm jealous of you both (Michelle and Charlize). I'm nowhere near that confident. I'll stick with my wigs and my headscarf thank you very much. Especially the headscarf. While I'm at the gym, I'm Queen of the Pirates!

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My friends all told me to sport the wig. Embrace it. Feel your new found youth...

 

Wooohooo....!

Pow!

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That's a lovely picture! I think the wig suits you.

 

Tracy

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Looking good girl!   Once i found a tile i liked i am rarely without mine except at night or when doing heavy work on a hot day by myself.  While i and my wife are comfortable with seeing me without a wig i do not present myself to the world as a chemo patient.  

It took me time to find comfortable in a wig but the years have made that issue disappear.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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You look fantastic! Best of all, you look happy.

 

Hugs!

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You look absolutely incredible, Michelle!  Keep doing what you're doing because it's obviously working for you very well.

 

Thanks for sharing your pics with us,

Susan R?

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Wow... Thanx y'all...

 

I needed that...

 

I start groin hair removal next week. Pain Clinic tomorrow!

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On 9/30/2019 at 3:02 AM, Charlize said:

You look great gal.  I know that look of bald and beautiful quite well but rarely am without my wig.  I have actually gotten used to it over the years but i'm also finding i can accept and smile at the bald head i see at night.  

Best of luck with your upcoming surgery.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

I have to admit, the only time leave without my wig is when I'm going to get a new one or I have some med/Surg appt...

 

Late I have felt really, really girly...

 

I mean totally squirmy, girly. I would have been wet and slickery as two frogs in a lily pond...!

 

I told my doc that and he said, "your referral was approved." Then he ordered my orchiectomy, penilectomy and vaginaplasty beginning with full body hair removal laser and electrolysis beginning Tuesday.

 

OMG I am Soooo excited?????

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There's quite a change there! Are you sure it's the same person ?

 

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