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Very nice Toni, sounds like a wonderful experience with your friend, and lovely new avatar picture here today :)

 

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Cyndee 

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Your hair looks fabulous, Toni!  You have a lovely new profile picture, too.  Sounds like a great day!  I agree about getting one's hair washed by another - it feels so relaxing to just let go and be cared for.  I'd do the salon more often if I could afford it (also, I can never quite recreate what the stylists can do with apparent ease).

 

{Goddess, it's hard typing with a baby strapped to your chest!)

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Lol! Yeah, I'm pretty low maintenance and have a tight budget. But wish I could do the salon and spa regular... 

Thanks hun ?

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@ToniTone just noticed the new look.  Very nice and the hair style/makeup work really nice together.  Keep doing whatever you’re doing!

 

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On 4/23/2019 at 4:29 AM, ToniTone said:

I also started creating stuff again. For the past ten years, I haven't really made any art or anything, just got wasted and destroyed stuff. Toxic masculinity I suppose. 

 

I started a music project called Toxic Femininity. I'm hoping to get more fems involved but for now it's a lazy solo project. Edm witch house with a punk rock edginess. I want to take power away from bigotry with this play on words. 

 

I've been drawing, writing poetry and started working on jewelry and accessories again too! It feels good to create again, rather than just destroy. 

 

❤️

~Toni

Drawing, writing poetry, and not just destroying, eh? Have you been reading my mail. . .hahahahhaaaa!!! Thanx so for letting us in!

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11 months transitioning on hrt (as of two days ago)! I don't really have much to say this month except... 

 

My breasts are the most sore they've been yet! They don't really hurt on the regular. But if I bump something, even brush them slightly, it sends me flying. Solid A-cup, firm tissue and still growing! Exciting times still!

 

Anyway, I have to get ready for work, long work week. Have a good day lovely's ?

 

~Toni

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I haven't posted about this yet, but something amazing and wonderful happened a few weeks ago. 

 

I was up in my dimly lit attic level corridor, walking to the stairwell to get down to the kitchen. Out the window at the end of the corridor is a window overlooking the back alley, the sky dark with the subtle twilight sunset glow.

 

My reflection in the window in this moment was just a vague silhouette of me. But what I saw was the form of a woman. It was mesmerising because normally I'm repelled by my own reflection. I dunno, it's such a simple joy, but it was kinda a magical moment for me. 

 

I've also been taking more selfies, and I'm starting to see the woman that is me become. I feel prettier now than I did at the beginning of all this. 

 

~Toni

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Hi, Toni.  Those serendipitous feminine reflections are pure gold.  You never know when it is going to happen, but enjoy it when it does.  No doubt, those hormones are doing their stuff!

 

Kathy

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Hi Toni! It is always magic moments for me to see feminine reflected back! Even when I have doubts,  I can realize how seeing confirming traits makes me happy.  It's who I am.

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11 hours ago, ToniTone said:

My reflection in the window in this moment was just a vague silhouette of me. But what I saw was the form of a woman.

That sounds like an absolutely magical moment, Toni.  I'm glad you were able to experience it.  I am more often seeing the real me, and it's wonderful, is it not?

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Thank you girls ? glad to hear some of you had similar experiences

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  • 4 weeks later...

IT'S MY 1 YEAR TRANSITIONING/BEING OUT ANNIVERSARY!!!

 

The year just seemed to fly by! And yet alot has happened, and I have come a long way from where I was a year ago. 

 

I'm so much more happy with myself than I was back then. I can't believe it's been a year already. But the hrt is still working it's magic. This is still very fresh and exciting for me! 

 

I'll come back to this post later today and elaborate more on my retrospective. Outside of this I'm very stressed today, the state of the world right now is giving me anxiety. Plus my roomies and I have to get the house ready bc we might have another girl moving into our already at capacity house, and I'm trying to arrange maybe moving out myself. I'm so stressed right now, anyway... 

 

Thank you everyone here at TP for supporting and being there for me throughout this year. Here's to many more, love y'all ??

 

~Toni

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As the old Virginia Slims ads used to say, "You've come a long way, baby!" By the way, I love that top!

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