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Hi everyone,

I guess I'll share a little background on me. I am not very far along . I just started seeing a therapist a few weeks ago. Prior to that though I had tried dealing with it all my life and it was really getting me down and I have always had a great fear of becoming old as a man. I managed to come out to my mom last month though. I came out as I was prepared for my family to disown me at that point so I felt it couldn't hurt since I really needed some help. I have a brother that harasses me but I have yet to come out to him. I don't think he will ever be able to live with a girl in the house he is in from my experiences so far like him fussing about me taking a bath to my nails lol. I haven't come out to my father yet but I have to all of my close friends.

I know I still have a long road ahead and I am currently also trying to come up with a name still as I have 3 in mind but I also want to find out how my mom would feel about them first though and see what she would have named me had I been born a girl. I really hope to start hormones in the fall as I am 21 but I still feel like I waited too long and I do want the best results. I am also currently trying to grow my hair out(even though it is only several inches long) after I cut it trying to make a last ditch effort at being comfortable as a man and it totally got me flipped around and I feel totally stupid and regret cutting it.

I had always viewed myself as feminine on the inside though,even though I had to conform as I used to get in trouble all the time by my parents and I was in fear of what they may have done to me.

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Guest joe0117

Hi Sailcruisn!

Welcome to the playground! Everyone here is super friendly and supportive. The greatest people in the world are here. It really is the friendliest place on earth. I hope you get settled in quickly and I look forward to getting to know you!!!

Joe

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Guest Sophie H

Well hello and welcome to the forum. I'm sure all the others will be along very shortly to offer you a warm welcome too. It's a great step that you managed to come out to your mum and one of the hardest steps I think so you are off to a good start there. As for your brother, I have 5 of them and 3 of them were fine when I told them and two of them thought I was about to just put a dress on and walk around the town in it, but they are both generally ignorant most of the time so I just ignore them. And no you have not left it to long to start hormone therapy, people do this well into their 50,60's and have great results, you are just a young girl and have it all going for you. I am 26 and only just starting out.

Anyways I have probably babbled on long enough now.

Welcome to the forum, it's lovely to have you with us :)

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Hi Sailcrusin and welcome, Sally loaned me the virtual cookie recipe so i made some, since it's warmer where i am come sit with me on the patio and have some virtual cookies and ice tea.

You are definitely not too old, I'm 57 and started transition last year, and getting great results and there are many your age that get excellent results too.

Congrats on coming out to your mom and friends, coming out to our parents is one of the most difficult things i have done so far, seems the more people i tell the easier it gets, probably from fine tuning what i say and being more confident.

HUGS!

Paula

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Guest brenda lee
Hi everyone,

I guess I'll share a little background on me. I am not very far along . I just started seeing a therapist a few weeks ago. Prior to that though I had tried dealing with it all my life and it was really getting me down and I have always had a great fear of becoming old as a man. I managed to come out to my mom last month though. I came out as I was prepared for my family to disown me at that point so I felt it couldn't hurt since I really needed some help. I have a brother that harasses me but I have yet to come out to him. I don't think he will ever be able to live with a girl in the house he is in from my experiences so far like him fussing about me taking a bath to my nails lol. I haven't come out to my father yet but I have to all of my close friends.

I know I still have a long road ahead and I am currently also trying to come up with a name still as I have 3 in mind but I also want to find out how my mom would feel about them first though and see what she would have named me had I been born a girl. I really hope to start hormones in the fall as I am 21 but I still feel like I waited too long and I do want the best results. I am also currently trying to grow my hair out(even though it is only several inches long) after I cut it trying to make a last ditch effort at being comfortable as a man and it totally got me flipped around and I feel totally stupid and regret cutting it.

I had always viewed myself as feminine on the inside though,even though I had to conform as I used to get in trouble all the time by my parents and I was in fear of what they may have done to me.

Sailcruisn , Sweetie , Welcome to the play ground I would like to suggest asking your mom what she would have named you as a girl.LOL Brenda Lee

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Guest Donna Jean

HEY, Sailcrusin, Sweetheart!!!

How are ya?????

OMG! It's so nice to have you here with us! I see that Paula has the cart this afternoon, (she's a real Honey!) so you can get some treats...have some of that delicious coco...not right now 'cause it's warm out, but be sure to take some with you, I usually make it....dang, it's good!

No, Hon...it's not too late...I'm another "Experienced" lady....lol...I'm 59 and transitioning, too...

If you get on hormones at 21-22 the results will be incredible, so, don't worry about that.....OK?

Just be sure to read lots of what is available here and it can clear up gobs of questions!

I hope that you have a good time and enjoy yourself...

XXOO

Donna Jean

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Guest Alyssa Leigh

Hi SailCrusin

Welcome to the playground every one here is so nice and understanding so look around and ask any questions you have.

Alyssa

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Well Hello,

Welcome to the forums, I see that Paula has gotten you some cookies (I sneaked one out of the batch and they are very good - I knew I gave the receipe to the right person, like the secret to Donna Jean's amazing cocoa, the secret ingredient is love - so really most of the people here can make them - OOPPPS, I'll lose my job as offical greeter! :lol: ) and a lot of great people have said hello, there will be more - we are international as well as having some night owls and early birds.

We are glad that you are here and you are starting at a good age - I'm also 57, maybe that's why Paula and I make cookies that taste so much alike - it's the age!

Enjoy your time here it is a friendly place.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest ~Brenda~

Welcome, Welcome Sail!!

I know that you are deciding on a name, just let your name choose you dear.. it will. You are so welcome here!! You are now safe my dear. Oh, you are not too late to start HRT. There are so many among us who are over twice your age and are just starting!! You are still very, very young!! You have your whole life to be the woman that you are! Don't worry about coming out, just let that be... coming out has an interesting way of having its own life. Just be who you are! Grow your hair, shave your legs, let your nails grow!! You will see, you will feel so much better, and coming out? You will see.. that is inevitable.

So welcome to Laura's hon. Share with us who you are, as we share with you. You will see, we are all the same, and can help one another. Please, don't be shy, and post on the forums dear. You will learn and experience more than you can imagine.

Love

bernii

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Guest DanM

Welcome to Laura's Sailcrusin,

As you can see everyone here is so friendly and loving. You will fit right in here and don't worry about anything. So far you seem to be on the right road. For some of us it was alot later in life when we decided to transition.

Peace Dan

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Guest Meredith_Baxter

Hello and welcome Sailcrusin!!!! :):)

I'm so glad you're here...this is most definitely the place where you can be you...all of you...we all know your struggles...you mentioned regretting cutting your hair...I recently posted that I had 'purged'...yep, through all my girl stuff away...you would think by now I would have learned that 'purging' in any sense of the word never works...my struggle still continues, but I know that being here is a very good first step for me toward self-acceptance...I have no doubt whatsoever that you will be loved here and helped immensely...I'm here for the long haul, and I hope you are also...sit back, relax, and fellowship with the family!!!

Hugs and Love,

Meredith

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