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Guest jaymie

Like many or most of the ladies here, for as long as i can remember, i have had the desire to experience life as a female. The desire varies in strength but it is typically there. However, lately i am practically obsessed with the thought. I don't know if i can remember a time in my life where i have had such strong feelings. Anybody else get the same way, where suddenly, your ususally somewhat subduded desire turns into something more...where almost everything you think about leads you back to those thoughts? And how do you cope with it? I have the support of my girlfriend in cross dressing, but even that doesn't seem to be quite sufficient lately...perhaps i just need to dress and do my makeup and stuff a little more than i have been doing. Oh well, any input would be greatly appreciated.

*hugs*

Jaymie

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Guest Elizabeth K

Part of what you are. Maybe dressing and all will help, but I just lie down, close my eyes and imagine I am what I want to be.

Lizzy

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Dreams are the way that I have dealt with most of my problems in life - I finish what I have to do (sometimes) and then I allow myself to daydream - in those dreams I am always who I should have been and the world accepts me - sort of a total 180 from my real life and that time can recharge your batteries a little.

If more people daydreamed and fewer obsessed over power and wealth, we probably wouldn't have so many wars.

Love ya,

Sally

From the far corner of the Playground, under the willow tree having a picnic by the stream.

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Guest 1charlotte1
Part of what you are. Maybe dressing and all will help, but I just lie down, close my eyes and imagine I am what I want to be.

Lizzy

This alwys works for me!! It gives me fuzzywarm feelings on theinside!! Ooh yeah! Give it a whirl! I have found myself particularly obsessed recently, so I am relatingto ur post! I just try to visualize myself as I want to be!

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Guest Ashlee

I've had many times when I have felt that way. I seems that my whole life has been that way. It cycles up to the point that it seems to be the only thing I think about, and then down to a point that I hardly think about it for days.

For the times when it is always on my mind, it really helps to be able to dress up and act completely female. One or two good days really makes me feel good inside.

I too will day dream about what I could be or most times, fall asleep thinking about being female, which many times leads to some really good dreams!

Oh, and a day out shopping can really do wonders for me too! ;)

Ashlee

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Guest Sophie H

I think this is quite natural. I always have those feelings the whole time, but sometimes they seem to really overpower me and it's like I want it all to happen immediately. It took my quite a while to realize that transition is a long process and patience is a virtue.

Its very natural to become obsessed with it, especially in the early days. You finally have been honest with yourself and decided who you are and you just want it to happen there and then, at least that's how it was for me.

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Guest Emily_MI

I have had strong feelings more of my life to be Female but over the last year or so it really has become an *obsession* for me to TRULY make it happen, the feelings are more and more prevalent each and everyday to be who I was truly meant to be in life, and even though I am taking my transition slow at the moment, it still does not hinder my feelings about how I feel and how I want my life to be and what it will take for me to be TRULY happy in life.

~Hugs~

-Emily

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Guest jaymie

Thanks ladies! I spend as much time as i can dreaming of being Jaymie, which is nice but I plan on spending the weekend (or as much of it as i can) as her/me (the real me..whatever that is...plus i really need to stop referring to Jaymie as a seperate entity! She is as much me as anything else about me...alright, i'm starting to confuse myself now...hopefully, you all know what i mean :rolleyes: ). Hopefully, that should relieve some of the discord i have been feeling lately...paint my toes and pamper myself a little. I'm hoping i can make it out to do a little shopping that always cheers me up (and what girl doesn't like/need a new bra and panties...maybe a nice dress or cute top...i get carried away when i think of shopping :lol: )....plus i'm really excited to hit the new store i was mentioning in another thread, at least just to see what they have first hand (they promise to stock much more than what is on their website)....i'm sure i'll have a huge want list after going there! Isn't it great to be a girl! (even if i can't be her all the time :( )

*hugs*

Jaymie

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I know how you feel the best thing iv found to do is just do what makes you feel good and happy remember you have to do what you feel you have to and the rest will come to you in time

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Guest Emily_MI
Like many or most of the ladies here, for as long as i can remember, i have had the desire to experience life as a female. The desire varies in strength but it is typically there. However, lately i am practically obsessed with the thought. I don't know if i can remember a time in my life where i have had such strong feelings. Anybody else get the same way, where suddenly, your ususally somewhat subduded desire turns into something more...where almost everything you think about leads you back to those thoughts? And how do you cope with it? I have the support of my girlfriend in cross dressing, but even that doesn't seem to be quite sufficient lately...perhaps i just need to dress and do my makeup and stuff a little more than i have been doing. Oh well, any input would be greatly appreciated.

*hugs*

Jaymie

Trust me Jaymie I know EXACTLY how you feel, there are times that my desire to TRULY live my life as a Female and as Emily is overwhelming, which at times it frustrating and depressing. I wish I could count how many times that when I go to bed a lot at night and when I wake up in the morning that I could just wake up as a girl and just finally be TRULY happy in life and be who I was always suppose to be. I just take it one day at a time and do what I can do to make my transition happen for me at a level that I can deal with(personally, professionally and of course financially). Just keep positive and it will happen for you Jaymie. Nothing worth while ever comes easy.

~HUGS~

-Emily

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Guest Charlene_Leona
Like many or most of the ladies here, for as long as i can remember, i have had the desire to experience life as a female. The desire varies in strength but it is typically there. However, lately i am practically obsessed with the thought. I don't know if i can remember a time in my life where i have had such strong feelings. Anybody else get the same way, where suddenly, your ususally somewhat subduded desire turns into something more...where almost everything you think about leads you back to those thoughts? And how do you cope with it? I have the support of my girlfriend in cross dressing, but even that doesn't seem to be quite sufficient lately...perhaps i just need to dress and do my makeup and stuff a little more than i have been doing. Oh well, any input would be greatly appreciated.

*hugs*

Jaymie

Yes I know those feelings extremely well, I told my brother when I first started this journey that it was more powerful than any addiction you could ever face. The wish's & prayers to wake up female never came to be in the short order, but after three years in transition have paid off well. Plus it has been eleven months since I had the Orchiectomy and I've really softened up allot in my face. It's also nice to be able to wear a swimsuit and not have that embarrassing bulge down there as well. It takes time to fully develop into that lady you see in your minds eye, but there will be a day when it will come to fruition. Just remember to girls take years to develop into ladies as well.

Just have patience

Charlene Leona

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Guest brenda lee
Like many or most of the ladies here, for as long as i can remember, i have had the desire to experience life as a female. The desire varies in strength but it is typically there. However, lately i am practically obsessed with the thought. I don't know if i can remember a time in my life where i have had such strong feelings. Anybody else get the same way, where suddenly, your ususally somewhat subduded desire turns into something more...where almost everything you think about leads you back to those thoughts? And how do you cope with it? I have the support of my girlfriend in cross dressing, but even that doesn't seem to be quite sufficient lately...perhaps i just need to dress and do my makeup and stuff a little more than i have been doing. Oh well, any input would be greatly appreciated.

*hugs*

Jaymie

Jaymie .I am just starting to transition so I just let my female side take over my personality. I totally love it. I dont think anyone could believe how much I hate being a male .LOL Brenda Lee

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Guest Joanna Phipps
Like many or most of the ladies here, for as long as i can remember, i have had the desire to experience life as a female. The desire varies in strength but it is typically there. However, lately i am practically obsessed with the thought. I don't know if i can remember a time in my life where i have had such strong feelings. Anybody else get the same way, where suddenly, your ususally somewhat subduded desire turns into something more...where almost everything you think about leads you back to those thoughts? And how do you cope with it? I have the support of my girlfriend in cross dressing, but even that doesn't seem to be quite sufficient lately...perhaps i just need to dress and do my makeup and stuff a little more than i have been doing. Oh well, any input would be greatly appreciated.

*hugs*

Jaymie

I started with Cross Dressing but it only opened the floodgate of the underlying issue, it sounds like this is what is happening to you where dressing ceases to be done for pleasure but is now done as part of the morning ritual. I would suggest that you find a good gender counselor and talk to them about this issue. I am sure that many of the other ladies on this forum can relate to parts of your story.

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