Hello from North Cali

[Mayazack-Moon]

Hi, all. How are you? My name is Zack, i am 25, norcal resident, and i am born man. Recently i have been having strong questions to myself about my gender identity and what i want out of my future. I joined this forum to explore the feelings of excitement and anxiousness surrounding this area in my life.

   Recently i think i have been having the feelings of wanting to be a woman. I feel like i would prefer that over how i present  to myself and the world now. I feel like i would enjoy the artistic freedom with  clothings and body, and hair. I know i can choose basically how i want to express myself as a guy but it is not the same i feel like.

     I like the self care in a way, especially when i let myself be the way i want it to. Didnt care to much for it before, brushed my hair with my hands basically. Ive never really had anger towards my body, just what i think is some level of detachment to my body. Like i would forget the details of what i would look like in a few days if there wasnt mirrors or cellphones lol.

 

Anyways, hope to talk to you all in the future, get to know some of you, hoping to understand this more and find some relief in this community sometimes.

 

Have a good day,

Zack

 

  

[Mayazack-Moon]

I would like to think that i know what it would be like to be a woman, but i am not completly sure. I enjoy more aspects of that genders life than just the self care but i want to be a bit brief for this post, more to talk about later,

 

See ya,

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Zack.  Please have a look around the forums, as well as the Community Rules, participate where you like, and ask all the questions you want.  We'll be here for you.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[Jani]

Hello Zack.  I think for anyone that is questioning their gender this is a good place to start. As Carolyn suggested have a look around to understand how others have gone about the same querying you are now doing.   

 

3 hours ago, Mayazack-Moon said:

I would like to think that i know what it would be like to be a woman, but i am not completely sure.

Without sounding all knowing I would suggest that you cannot understand what it is like, especially at this point.  I remember telling a friend that this was extremely hard, not just physically or emotionally but due to all the tiny things we never learned growing up.  Living as a woman is so much more than just dressing the part.  Women think and act out their lives so much differently than men, IMO.  Transitioning is not easy but if it is what you want it is worth the effort. 

 

3 hours ago, Mayazack-Moon said:

I feel like i would enjoy the artistic freedom with  clothings and body, and hair. I know i can choose basically how i want to express myself as a guy but it is not the same i feel like.

Of course as you note you can take the liberty to present any way you want right now.  Maybe a feminine leaning guy would suit you.  Only you know.  If you haven't considered it, I highly recommend looking for a gender therapist to discuss things with on a one on one basis.  If you open up and are honest I think you will be surprised at who you really are inside and who you can be on the outside.   

 

I hope to see you around the forum! 

Cheers, Jani

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Zack,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf ?

[Mayazack-Moon]

Thank you all. Jani, you are right, i have no clue what it is to be of that experience. My comment and notion that i know what it is to be a woman in this world feels arrogant now. Thank you for shining a light.

    Maybe a more feminine leaning guy would suit me, time will tell.

[Charlize]

Hi Zack.  It took me a long time to make the decision to express and show myself to the world as a woman.  I think i'll always be a bit of a mixture.  Regardless of how we are seen finding a path towards peace with ourselves is wonderful.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize