Went to see my Therapist

[Dannie]

Went to see my therapist and my GD was bad that day And she ask me what set it off? And I told her it was my wife, and all she did was call me to make sure I logged off the computer. Are computer is in the dinning room, and she wanted to make sure no one saw my login, because of all the transgender info sites I have on it. And I didn't say anything till a was in the therapy session, and they I just broke down. I have been hiding myself for over 50 yrs and I don't need her to tell me how to do it. I just got so mad and I felt like such a weirdo like all the feeling of being a kid growing up just came flooding back. And then my wife got really quiet, me and sally looked at her and said what's wrong? Of course am thinking she can't believe she got hooked up with me and my transexual issues. She started crying uncontrollably Im thinking I went to far, I shouldn't have told her I have been hiding who I really am my whole life. So I am holding her hand my therapist Sally is asking if she wants to talk to spouses of other Trans women Finally she looks at me and says no Im scared you are going to leave me! Boy I didn't see that one coming! Needless to say Sally want me on HRT as soon as I can it in. The only Dr in my area has a two month waiting list. She only see two trans patients a week on Saturdays, she is a OBYN and moved here from San Francisco and has a lot of experience with HRT and the trans community. So thing are moving along its going to be a long two m months  

[SaraAW]

My wife says the same thing. I thought at first she meant me leaving her for someone else. It turns out after I’ve assured her many times I am attracted to women only and have eyes for her only, she means the male me leaving and being replaced by someone/something else. It really makes me feel awful that she thinks that way. I had hoped she loved the metaphysical me enough to overcome the pure physical change I’m hoping for. It’s still early as we work through things, I’m hopeful but am starting to work on a plan B should she not come around. 
 

All that to say, if you haven’t talked further with your wife about what she means about you leaving, you may want to have a longer chat when you’re ready.   
 

I hope things work out well for you. 
 

*hugs*
 

Sara