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[OpenHearted]

Hello

 

I am generally not doing great, especially today. I will come back to that shortly.

 

I have been cross dressing or interested in transgender lifestyle for decades. Only in this past year or two now have I been very open about it with anyone.

 

I am not too sure about going into too many details about my current crisis' but I am desperate for greater support most days. I have diagnosis' of major depressive disorder, ptsd, and suicidal ideology. I am wondering if it might be c-ptsd.

 

I am from Canada. I am 44 non-binary/free spirit/two spirit. I was born male.

 

I am recovered from alcoholism, on a daily basis, since Friday March 13th 2015. I am smoke free since Friday October 13th 2017. I still tend to drink too much coffee and I am far from perfect but most moments of each day I love myself and many other spirits with all my heart, mind, and soul. Sometimes with a hug, smiles, or even occasionally with kisses to special spirits I cross paths with

[OpenHearted]

I tried ?crisis on discord, once I figured it out relatively and I tried the trans crisis line earlier but to no avail. I am not having a good day ?? 

[Carolyn Marie]

Hello again, OpenHearted.  I gave you a couple of other suggestions on your other post.  If those don't work out for whatever reason, please consider calling a friend or family member who can take you to urgent care or a hospital emergency room for evaluation.  Please stay safe and seek help.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[Krisvm]

Hello OpenHearted,

 

Sorry you have been a bad time of it lately. Hope things improve soon.

 

Love and hugs,

 

Kris

[OpenHearted]

Thanks Kris and Carolyn.

 

I will likely try both options (i.e. discord & transline) again tomorrow or tonight Carolyn. I am trying to stay out of hospital. I have a few self care appointments in the coming weeks which should continue with my post crisis progress. I just haven't had enough down time lately is part of the issue I suppose. I do what I can for self care and I am very fortunate to be staying where I am currently living.

[Carolyn Marie]

3 hours ago, OpenHearted said:

Thanks Kris and Carolyn.

 

I will likely try both options (i.e. discord & transline) again tomorrow or tonight Carolyn. I am trying to stay out of hospital. I have a few self care appointments in the coming weeks which should continue with my post crisis progress. I just haven't had enough down time lately is part of the issue I suppose. I do what I can for self care and I am very fortunate to be staying where I am currently living.

 

I'm glad to hear that, hon.  Please stay in touch with us and let us know how you're doing.  I care about you!

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[OpenHearted]

Thank you as I really to be reminded there are people who do care these days. I am going to try the transline now as I was just triggered again. I hope I can get through or I will discord again