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Hi everyone,

 

my name is Katharina and I identify myself as a Trans*Woman. After a 36 year long struggle with my own gender identity, I came to the conclusion that there was no way to continue living in a man's role and now I'm on my journey to become the woman I really am. In my childhood and again later at the end of 1999 I initially came to the point that something was just wrong with me. But no matter how hard I tried to get help, my gender identity crisis was literally discarded by psychologists i spoke to because they took me not serious at all. With no support and being a psychological wreck I tried to become a man in the eyes of society (and obviously failed). Years went by and to supress my feelings, I put all my effort and energy in doing higher education and work. So I worked myself from Bachelor to a Master's degree in Computer Science and as I was just about starting to write my final thesis, my gender identity crisis came back to me. I realized that I have to change my life and reached out for professional help. That did change everything.

 

I'm so thankful that I have been able to accept the woman I really am and got everything right this time. I got my name and gender marker officially changed in all my documents and I'm over 4 months in HRT. I'm also in a wonderful relationship with a man that before was my very best friend and I fell in love with ?. I couldn't imagine all those good things happening around me prior to my transition. Without any doubt, I was right about myself and although I went all in by coming out to familiy members, friends and work, it really paid off this time. Yes, I also lost a bunch of friends and parts of my familiy and society can sometimes be very hurtful. On the other hand I'm living the life I always dreamed of and life has become so much better.

 

Well, that was a rather lengthy introduction but that's where I am today. In my local community and at work in University I am very dedicated to make Trans* and LGBTIQ+ more visible. I always have a lot of questions regarding the transition process and I have tons of experience to share as well. After reading for about a year in this forum I finally decided to join ?!

 

Thanks for having me ?,

Katharina

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Hi Katharina, and welcome to our happy little forum! It's a very supportive community, everyone here is pretty friendly. Congrats on 4+ months hrt! ?

 

~Toni

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Welcome to Trans Pulse, Katharina.  It's wonderful to read such a positive intro post.  Your life seems to be going very, very well, and I'm happy for you.  I'm sure there are things about this life and transition that you still have questions about, so please look around and post in any threads that interest you or start some of your own.  We don't have many members from Germany, so willkommen in unserem zuhause (welcome to our home).

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie


 
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Welcome Katharina.  Thank you for sharing your journey.  As others who are trying to find themselves read about the journeys of others they can hopefully find their path.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

 

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Hi Katharina,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug, 

Timber Wolf ?

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On 1/4/2020 at 6:16 AM, Katharina said:

Thanks for having me ?,

Katharina

Hello Katharina...it’s a pleasure to meet you.  What an overall happy introduction, by the way.  It’s nice to see that you’ve really embraced who you really are and it’s paying off dividends.  I found this to be the case with myself too.  No one along my path ever told me this was the solution all along.  Knowing ourselves is half the battle.

 

Thanks for joining us here.  I would love to read more about your journey.  Please share more if you feel the urge.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

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Thank you all for your very warm welcome ?.

 

I'm really looking forward to share my journey in more detail in a separate topic once I got a bit around the forum functions. There will be definitely something "crazy" to read in the near future about my transition experiences.

 

Lots of hugs,

Katharina

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Katharina welcome. Thank you for sharing your story.  I hope you were able to get through your thesis without any issue.  I know gender identity can have a strong pull on our lives that is not alway positive.  It seems like you are happy.  Wonderful.

 

Jani  

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Hi and welcome Katharina! This is a great place with caring people. I think you'll feel right at home.

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By all means! A number of us have personal threads where we share our stories. I look forward to reading yours... ?

 

~Toni

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