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My journey as a part time crossdresser started at age 8.Being the oldest with 3 younger sisters,mom brought home a box of girl's clothes and I thought it was for my sisters.Mom pulled out a blue dress,shows it to me asking me to try it on and I said no at first.Mom wasn't mad and I did finally say yes on trying this dress on.She said I looked cute in it and I discovered something too.The dress was very comfortable to wear including a female persona coming out.Luckily the rest of the clothes which were tops,skirts,other dresses and jeans fit me too.Then it was at the store buying panties and hosiery for me including a couple pairs of shoes.Luckily my hair was shoulder length,no wig needed and mom styled it a little bit.Finally one day,I did get dressed as a girl for the whole day and I loved it.Mom looked at me and said I was going to get my ears pierced.I was uncomfortable about this part at first and made it through.As I got older,did get used to wearing a bra when I dressed as Adrianna.Make up started at 14 years old,learned from a make up artist and I got it right due to lots of practice.Heels at 15 and same thing,I got it right walking in them due to lots of practice.Tough part was finding an SO that was supportive,first 4 were not and I thought about giving up in 2002 at first.I struck luck in 2002 meeting my wife Nikki whom I married in 2005.Nikki taught me she loves me for who I am and has encouraged me not to give up.Plus it is fun shopping with her.I love her a lot and glad to have her in my life ever since.Nikki sees Adrianna as a girlfriend of hers.My future,staying part time as Adrianna

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Hi Adrianna,

 

Thank you for sharing your story! Since you posted this 11 hours prior to my post, I am somewhat surprised others have not jumped in ahead of me. Though my story is not exactly the same as yours, I relate particularly to the feelings that come out in your bio. In many ways, writing my bio here felt like a coming out. I began secretly trying on the clothes of my best friend's mother when I was much older than you. But I was aware of deep feminine feelings as early as 3 when I played only with the girls on my block and wished I could wear their clothes. I also relate to the sense of ambivalence about dressing that you indicate, though now I feel very comfortable dressing as a woman. I am thinking of going full time and considering HRT. You are very welcome here and there are many folks here who have much in common with you. I look forward to reading many more of your posts!

 

Hugs,

 

Robin

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I loved the feeling when I put the hosiery on too,felt good against my legs.I still love being a part time woman.When I am not as Adrianna,I am a normal guy as a contractor in the construction field

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1 hour ago, AdriannaB said:

I still love being a part time woman.When I am not as Adrianna,I am a normal guy as a contractor in the construction field

Hello Adrianna, I can also relate to this part of your journey.  I was a small business owner for 23 years. Ten of those years, I lived as a “normal” cis male while running the business 8-9 hours of the day.  After work, I became Susan until the next morning.  Rinse and repeat.  I stopped the cycle to start a family in 1996.  After a 21 year hiatus of suppressing myself, I finally admitted who I am to myself and then my wife.  The rest is history.  I don’t miss my male persona at all while living full time as Susan.  It’s interesting to me that the reverse had never been the case.


My Best,

Susan R?

 

 

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9 hours ago, Susan R said:

Hello Adrianna, I can also relate to this part of your journey.  I was a small business owner for 23 years. Ten of those years, I lived as a “normal” cis male while running the business 8-9 hours of the day.  After work, I became Susan until the next morning.  Rinse and repeat.  I stopped the cycle to start a family in 1996.  After a 21 year hiatus of suppressing myself, I finally admitted who I am to myself and then my wife.  The rest is history.  I don’t miss my male persona at all while living full time as Susan.  It’s interesting to me that the reverse had never been the case.


My Best,

Susan R?

 

 

Good thing is I work for a good company and most know about my femme side Adrianna.Came out 5 years ago and did find out an anti discrimination policy was put in place

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41 minutes ago, AdriannaB said:

Came out 5 years ago and did find out an anti discrimination policy was put in place

Very nice! Sounds like a very good company to work for and a safe place to be you.  

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Yes,everyone is treated the same.I did find the perfect tribute song to my wife as well which will be played to her on Valentine's Day.will be 15 years in June My wife and I got married.This is the song I found that describes my wife Nikki,  

ttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1EVd_zghQXA

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