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A. Dillon

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I just remembered this thing that makes it pretty obvious that I was trans from an early age:

When I was in middle school, there was this game called "Prodigy" that would test your math skills. It was actually pretty fun, and I got very far. Anyway, you got to choose your own character, and I instinctively made mine a boy named Giovanni. I only realized that it was weird when my teacher was asking everyone else what their character was so that she could record it, and I was the only one with a different gender. I was embarrassed, and just let everyone else think that my character, who was in the lead in every arena, was played by a different male classmate who was favored by the teacher. I still kind of regret that, because I never got any credit for it, and those who did know it was me made fun of me for it. Every game I was ever in I would be a male character, and I never even thought twice about it until now. 

 

Another thing that I remember thinking like that was my eighth grade graduation. All of the guys wore dark blue robes, and the girls light blue. When we went to take our pictures, I tried pleading with the people to let me wear the dark blue, but they said that I wasn't allowed to and I almost started crying. I felt like an outcast, as all of my male friends got to be together but I had to be separate. I told myself and my family that I just liked the dark blue better, which I did, but there was also this want for belonging that I was missing out on.

 

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I remember very early on, especially in school looking at the girl's dresses and wishing I could wear one. They were so pretty! In later days I went to the stores with my parents but they would never buy anything with flowers or similar pretty patterns even if nominally male. I think that is why I normally wear fairly plain patterned clothes now. Years of conditioning.

 

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I relate so much, any game I played, without thinking I chose male. Though my brother always chose female and said "smaller hitbox" I really didn't care

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Really? I always chose female and said, "I'm going to be looking at a butt for 100+ hours. I prefer this one."

 

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36 minutes ago, Jackie C. said:

Really? I always chose female and said, "I'm going to be looking at a butt for 100+ hours. I prefer this one."

 

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Pfft! who said I didn't check out all the characters first? Especially UFC 3 where you can make your own character. 

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Well that's a given, I play more RPGs than fighting games anymore and I won't buy a RPG unless I can play as female. Back in the day though... I spent a lot of money on fighting games for the PS1, PS2, SNES, SEGA Genesys... I have a lot of vintage consoles. Not so many friends to play fighting games with anymore though.

 

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53 minutes ago, Jackie C. said:

Really? I always chose female and said, "I'm going to be looking at a butt for 100+ hours. I prefer this one."

 

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Only true benefit to being in the girl's changing room, there were a lot of them bending over without much concern.

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Every mmo I have ever played i have picked and customized my character to be female without pause every creation takes literal hours. Sadly most fighting games have a sparse selection of female characters that aren't just fan service, i enjoyed the soul caliber series?

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I grew up playing "Mortal Kombat" and it's still my favorite series to this day. Besides maybe "Eyes of Heaven"

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