Is Some high power playing a joke on Trans people

[Lexi C]

I feel like someone is playing a joke on me. I mean why was I born this way? What god made me a man if  at the end I suppose to be woman. The -holy buckets- I (WE) have to jump through just to slightly feel normal. All the surgeries, the electrolysis, laser, wigs just so I can moderately look like the bein I was suppose to be at birth. Then this Anthony Hopkins high power toss in loneness and Dysphoria as F.U . Maybe I am the only one feeling this way, just tried of trying to look like a real woman. Afraid that I will just be a freak for the rest of my life. I Don't EVEN KNOW IF WHAT I HAVE IS A DISEASE. or am I just clinically insane.. We are force to go to doctors , most states and healthcare facilities call  it a condition or a disease  I hate posting because I always feel like manic depressive loser, but seriously r we some kinda of experiment going wrong cause I just frustrated, upset and drain 

[JoniSteph]

Well said @Alex C

I sympathize with you and also question myself @Alex C, including everything from doctors refusing or being untrained to deal with TG people. This includes clinics, Endos, therapists and other professionals together with their ridiculously long wait times.  Trying to find hope in among all that and still move ahead with planning for the future. as you say - deal with the hair removal issues, facial / makeup appearance by training, the wigs to cover male pattern baldness at elder ages, and body reshaping to make ones shape to resemble a CIS female.

Like you Alex,  I am questioning myself as to whether or not I shall ever be happy within the body that I now know should have been born into. Instead of finding out through therapy within the past year and a half as to why the suicide attempts, mental health problems over the years and the dysphoria of body and mind.

Felt like someone goof up on the mold when they made me and should have done a re-casting right away and not waited for me to try and do it now.  <SIGH >

 

Have a great day all

 

Canadian Hugs All

JoniSteph

[Lexi C]

your statement is so much more eloquent . TY hugs back

[Carolyn Marie]

You don't have a disease, Alex, nor are you insane.  Yes, we go through these trials to be the person we need to be, but maybe that's meant to test our resolve.  If we get through the gauntlet it means that we have what it takes, that we've persevered and outlasted all the naysayers and doubters, that we deserve that new gender.

 

It will be/is worth it, Alex.  You have to believe that, because its true.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[ShawnaLeigh]

I certainly understand the frustrations and for some this is a mountain for others a mole hill.  However I can say that One, God does not make mistakes, and Two some have a much harder journey in life then others by design.  This is because we are all unique and special in his eyes and that he puts us on this path for a reason.  It can take a lifetime to understand only a bit of why.  Being born into the wrong body is not how you should look at it.  Being born was the gift and what you do with that gift is yours to decide.  If you discover you have dirfferent feeling or desire then society's cis norm then that's on them not God.   Your are beautiful as you are and can only be better if you chose to be.

Or so I recall from my catholic teachings when I was a child.    

 

I tend to agree that not everyone has it hard and at times it does not seem fair to those that do, and some have it absolutely terrible.  After being born we all make choices, even at the youngest of ages and these put us on a path that has infinite outcomes based on the next choice and the choice after that and so on.  

Most of my life I chose to do the wrong things for myself and suffered dearly many times over.  Decades worth!  But I look back and see where I went wrong over and over again.  I chose poorly based on the lies I was trying to live.  Being trapped by fears and anxiety and depression.

 

Now I chose to be me and press forward regardless of how hard or easy it is.  I know who I am inside and I know who I want to be on the outside.  I can only do my best with both.  

In the end you have to choose who you are and want to be and do it.  No one is going to do it for you or make it any easier.  Yes some support and accept which is awesome.  Some don't which sucks.  That's life.

Hard and cruel and wonderful and beautiful.  

You chose.

[Charlize]

There was a time when i felt the same anger and despair i hear in your post Alex.  All i can offer is what has helped me.  I came here and shared, not only my disappointments but the small triumphs.  Just being able to go to the store was such a huge step.

Even getting out the door had been a dream.

After spending some time with a gender therapist and time here my path eased a good bit.  Time has brought acceptance.  Are things perfect?  No.  I am finding peace as myself however.  I'm simply a trans woman living my life as myself and that is a miracle in itself.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[Jackie C.]

Fair. Being trans is hard.

 

The fantasy where I'm born in the right body gets a lot of play. So does the one where I wake up as a nineteen-year-old woman with a note that says, "Sorry about the mix-up." I kind of prefer the second one. I don't want to endure high school again, but I'd like to be a pretty young hottie for my wife.

Of course I'd also like to be pretty, successful, enjoy eternal youth and be independently wealthy. If I get to pick my life, let's shoot for the moon.

 

It's frustrating but there's nothing you can do about that. Well, there are a few things. You can be active in the community about acceptance, getting us included in anti-discrimination laws, etc... You can help others that are going through what you did. You can just be a shining example of a human being so people look at you and think, "Wow, that person is really nice/pleasant/cool/awesome/whatever."

 

Being trans isn't the greatest starting point in life. It makes a lot of things more difficult. It makes some people pre-judge you based on their preconceptions. On the other hand, it's just a starting point. What you choose to do with your life is still entirely up to you. You may have to try harder, but being trans is no excuse not to try.

 

By all means come and vent to us (or anyone really) when things get difficult. That's human. We all need reassurance, pampering and a pat on the head now and then. Once you're ready though, go out and strive to live your best life. In the end, trans or not, that's all any of us can do.

 

Hugs!

[JoniSteph]

As the lovely ladies before me have stated in not so many words, but believe in ourselves and work towards what we wantand deserve in this short life time to make one happy. Whether it is by expression on forums such as this, to a therapist, in a group, or even to a close friend. I have taken it one step further to even by emails to the press, politicians, advocacy groups for LGBTQ rights, and attending local trans group meeting. Wanting to start a localized forums for the 3 regional provinces, to help with common problems getting support for transgender folks.

At least it helps me divert my attention away from myself and my not going anywhere in my transition. It does allow me to encourage the few that I have met online.

So @Alex C keep your head held high and keep looking forward to your goal in life, you will succeed. <HUGS> 

You can do it too.

 

JoniSteph

[The Viv Element]

This planet, Earth, is yours as much as it is anyone elses, Live your life the way how you want & find your happiness, as long as what you're doing isn't harmful. Often times people forget that there is no rules to being a human really, Just be yourself & stay out of everyone elses business unless they ask for help and i guarantee that you'll see a positive change in life. 

Stay strong xo ❤️

[Lexi C]

Thanks ladies..I really learn a lot from all of you. I guess I keep forgetting that life is for the living..So much lv from all you,  that it just overwhelms me with happiness. Thank you again 

[Oh_Kay]

Hi Alex, 

 

I was reading thru older posts and saw this. I just joined and I want you to know that I have read some of your posts and never has it entered my mind that you were a loser. And for how we were born, maybe we were supposed to be this way. It's some crazy idea that society has that we are flawed or something is wrong with us. Society's norms do a whole lot of damage and trauma to people!

 

Kay

[BrandiBri]

On 3/12/2020 at 7:10 AM, ShawnaLeigh said:

Being born into the wrong body is not how you should look at it.  Being born was the gift and what you do with that gift is yours to decide.

I agree that we are who and what we are was determined at the time of conception and that God made us for His purposes. I have chosen to get involved in the battle for non discrimination, both locally and on the state level. Next stop, at the polls in November!

 

Hugs from my fortress,

Brandi

[Lexi C]

Thanks Kay that means a lot. 

BB your right......time to KICK ASS

 

[Jani]

7 hours ago, Oh_Kay said:

And for how we were born, maybe we were supposed to be this way.

@Oh_Kay you may be right!  I wouldn't trade who I am or who I turned out to be. 

 

@Alex C Keep moving forward, striving to be the best you possible. 

 

Jani

[Lexi C]

Thanks J I am trying....I am trying