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I'm not sure how I arrived where I am in life. I'm divorced, more than once. I'm not proud of it but it's the fact. I am straight and very attracted to women. To be honest I don't have much use for most men. I don't hunt, fish or watch sports. The few men I've met who I do have enough in common with to talk to are typically well educated. I cross dress and have on  occasion since I was 15. In 1999 I got my first computer. I was aware of kink before that, but the internet opened up a vast reservoir of information. This re-awakened my desire to cross dress. I started wearing panties. Not everyday. Just when the mood would strike. A few years later I got married. We played some bedroom games. She had me wearing panties, again not everyday. She had me get breast forms and she would occasionally have me dress up. Eventually she left. I stopped cross dressing for some years. I was married again, then last year found myself single again. I've met a younger woman online. She's quite far away. We communicate almost daily. She is now controlling my cross dressing. I'm still acquiring a wardrobe. My requirements are black frilly dresses,  petticoat, breast forms, pantyhose, lacy panties, a long wig and boots with 6 inch heels. I'm to dress this way at all times when I am home. I dress as my old male self when leaving the house. There are other requirements, but for privacy I won't divulge more. I'm learning more each day. Like many I find makeup the most challenging. I bought an inexpensive makeup kit online that I've discovered is mostly useless.

 

I know there are some vague areas in my story. This is to protect my privacy and the privacy of others who have been in my life.

 

 

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Welcome to Trans Pulse, Sadie.  It's nice to meet you.  There are many cross dressers here, and most of us who transitioned started out that way.  I cross dressed right up until I got engaged.  Getting rid of all my stuff was very painful.  I'm happy for you that you found someone who is supportive of your dressing so you no longer have to hide it (from her).

 

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Welcome Sadie, I'm glad you found us. We are here to support you in any way we can.

 

Hugs from my fortress in Lincoln,

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3 hours ago, Sadie said:

I'm learning more each day. Like many I find makeup the most challenging.

Thanks for your intro Sadie. You’ll find others here at a similar place in their transition. As far as the makeup...it is steep learning curve.  It’s very much learning a new art form really. But like most artists, you get better with time and practice. I find it difficult deciding what works best with one’s specific skin texture, color, shape of face, and how to feminize or lesson the male dominant features. I really enjoy trying new things when I’m at home but when I go out, I find I go back to what I practice and know best.

 

Again, thank you for sharing more of your story. Hope to read even more!

 

My Best,

Susan R?

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Hey Sadie what everyone said above me is right on the money. I CD on and off for 45yrs, Full time for 3year and then finally I began my transition  56 now. Susan is right about make-up its tricky. I took a make-up class which help. If you have not yet would also recommend seeking a gender therapist to talk with. Good luck I know from exp that 6' heels are a bitch to walk in, but once you get comfort in then they become second skin. I have two 8'inch but I only wearing on special events like weddings  . hugs

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Hello Sadie.

 

Well that was certainly an interesting indroduction.

 

Good luck with those 6 inch heels of yours.? :eek:

 

Welcome to the forum.

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Salutations Sadie! I'm with Maid here. Six inch heels? Eek!

 

Then I find out that Alex has eight inch heels. Alex might need an intervention.

 

In any case, welcome to the community! I hope you find what you're looking for here!

 

Hugs!

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Welcome Sadie!  Thanks for sharing.  

 

Cheers, Jani

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Welcome to TP Sadie!

I don't dare heel at all.  I'm to clumsy now.  I would be on the floor more then walking. 

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Thanks for the positive comments and support.

I'm 6'2". I don't really need heels at all. But that's what my friend wants so that it's challenging. The 6" heels are actually platforms for training. So there is only a 4" difference between the front and heel. But, she eventually wants me in 8" platforms. Same ratio of difference though. She says even though the ratio is the same being higher is more challenging. In my mind I"m comparing it to stilts! Six inches is quite challenging. It's interesting how much shorter you gait is in heels.

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Welcome Sadie glad you are here! I will stick with 3in heels I can barely walk with them and I still stumble lol.

 

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They Sadie the higher the heel the more you need to work your core. Platsform are ok my are stilettos. I walk around ( esp now) my place with my 6inch just as a core and butt exercise for about 30min a day...It really helps. hugs

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On 4/11/2020 at 10:35 AM, kelly sinclair said:

6in 8in I would 6.6 our 6.8 feet tall yicks how do you were them or walk in them 

I got the 6" platforms last week, but a piece came off the strap. I only got to wear them for about 30 minutes. The replacement shoes will be here Thursday. I walk in them very carefully and stay near a wall in case I need support. My friend, I'll call her Judy, said it will take time to learn to walk gracefully in them. I'm not even sure I can achieve grace. I am supposed to wear them in the house for everything, cleaning, cooking, dishes, etc.

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