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Josie C.

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I’ve only come to realize who I am in the last 4 months, having thought I was merely kinky while crossdressing the last 15 or so years.
 

I’m now free (some of the time—complicated agreement while going through a divorce) and openly exploring this side of me. I feel free and real when presenting as Josie but do not suffer from severe dysphoria when in boy mode....I just don’t feel happy. 
 

Currently in therapy with a counselor/Dr who specializes in transgender issues, and have been making many small steps to feminize. I read and watch, and cry through, many books and videos related to transgender people and their transitions.
 

I’m in the process of deciding whether to begin electrolysis and HRT.
 

I’ve come out to nearly everyone (parents, aunts and uncles, brother/wife, sister-in-law/husband, ex wife, and even those at work needing to know) though I have not dressed in front of them—shared pictures only. I’m openly in both boy and girl modes at my marina.  
 

I have come a long way in a short time but I am struggling with decisions regarding moving forward in a permanent way while also facing a ticking clock due to my age (48)....I think I know what I want, but still fear the real reactions once I have to present as Josie full time. 


Thank you all for your acceptance!

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Josie, if I might suggest that you stay patient while you explore your true feelings.  If I had it to do all over again, I would have had electrolysis done years ago.  I have always hated facial hair even as a man.  Welcome to these forums.  Chatting with everyone here is a great way to share your journey.

 

Hugs,

 

Sally 

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Welcome. You look amazing. Good luck with your journey. I am at the start with so much of the road ahead of me. It’s exciting but daunting. 
 

Hugs

 

Faye xxx

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Hello Josie and welcome.  The clock really isn't ticking too fast at 48.  I started at 61 and many others here have started late as well.  Its never too late to live your life as you want.  Concerning electrolysis, I would suggest starting it (when you can) as it is affirming to have smooth skin.  It is a long process that is expensive in cost and commitment.  Even if you never transition, not having to shave is a positive result.  You mentioned your marina and I saw the photo at your profile, do you presently live on a boat?  I've spoken to a number of full timers when I've visited family in St. Pete.  It looks enticing.  That you've been openly male and female there shows people generally don't care.

 

As to being afraid of how others will react to you, it doesn't matter.  Whether you come out now or a year from now will not change their thoughts.  

 

1 hour ago, Josie C. said:

Currently in therapy with a counselor/Dr who specializes in transgender issues, and have been making many small steps to feminize. I read and watch, and cry through, many books and videos related to transgender people and their transitions.

I'm glad to read you are in therapy as it is a good tool for sorting things out.  I would not overdose on books and videos as they can be overwhelming as you can attest.  Focus on your own happiness and progress that is right for you.  While we may be in this together, the journey is personal.  You make your own rules as how far and fast to move.  

 

Please join in the conversation.  Its a great way to feel connected to the community. 

 

Cheers, Jani

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Hi, Josie! I too am at the beginning of my new life. Definitely a long road ahead, but it will be worth it. Nice to meet you! 

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3 hours ago, Jani said:

do you presently live on a boat?  I've spoken to a number of full timers when I've visited family in St. Pete.  It looks enticing.

I’m part time in Jax and part time on my boat in St Pete. Do you mean to say you know a number of full time lives boards or full time girls?

 

 

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4 hours ago, Faye1972 said:

Welcome. You look amazing. Good luck with your journey. I am at the start with so much of the road ahead of me. It’s exciting but daunting. 
 

Hugs

 

Faye xxx

Thanks, hun!

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Welcome.  You are definitely more brave than I am currently.  I am still questioning but denying to myself.  It is getting more difficult though.  I am glad you were able to discover yourself. 

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Josie welcome to the forum. ?

 

7 hours ago, Josie C. said:

Currently in therapy with a counselor/Dr who specializes in transgender issues, and have been making many small steps to feminize. I read and watch, and cry through, many books and videos related to transgender people and their transitions.

 

 

Can i just clarify? You being treated by Dr Who? Amazing. I didnt know she or he depending on where you sit, did that stuff.

 

I hope you find your own utopia.

 

I look forwald to your writings :typing:

 

 

MIB

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Welcome to Trans Pulse, Josie.  Please have a look around and post whatever questions you have, and I'm sure there are many.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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8 hours ago, Josie C. said:

I have come a long way in a short time but I am struggling with decisions regarding moving forward in a permanent way while also facing a ticking clock due to my age (48)

Hi Josie, it’s a pleasure to meet you.  You’ve certainly come a long way and it sounds like your in that place where you need to decide how far and fast you want to go from here or not. As @Jani inferred, don’t let your age hold you back. Living true to yourself is far more important than some hypothetical age barrier.  I didn’t start transitioning “permanently” until I was 56 and after nearly two years, I’ve never been happier.  I know results and experiences vary between individuals but you did mention you’re much happier as your feminine self. Whichever path you choose to take, I wish you the best. Also thank you for sharing some of yourself with us here today.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

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5 hours ago, Josie C. said:

I’m part time in Jax and part time on my boat in St Pete. Do you mean to say you know a number of full time lives boards or full time girls?

I've talked to a number of full time boat dwellers when I've been in St. Pete.  I wouldn't say I "know" them, I just strike up conversations at the St. Petersburg Yacht Club docks.  I do know a few full time women but here in NH where I live, not FL.  

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6 hours ago, Maid In Bedlam said:

Can i just clarify? You being treated by Dr Who? Amazing. I didnt know she or he depending on where you sit, did that stuff.

 

I saw this too, and I was thinking more along the lines of fantastic! ?

 

Oh yes, and welcome!

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Hey Josie You looking amazing.

St. Pete is pretty open minded place, at least , it use to be 4yrs ago.

I start CD when I was 5 stop at my teens and p/t from 27- 45 and full CD from then on started HRT and transitioning  2yrs ago. I always tell any who will listen..start when your young cuz it get very difficult  when you get older.

Get yr here enjoy the ride. Be safe, BE Proud and KICK ASS 

 

 

 

 

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