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Heather Shay

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What word describes the feeling of relief beyond light headed or giggy?

 

I went to my family doctor today and talked about HRT - he took blood tests needed and offered referral if needed.

I got home and the health care provider Equitas Health that I was told was excellent in Ohio returned a message to me and I just got off the phone and have an appointment to talk to my HRT lead on July 2 and am being set up with therapist the is closer to my residence. 

 

Feels like a weight has been lifted.

 

Biggest hurdle left is sitting down with my wife of 27 years and explain why this is so important, that she is the most important person to me and hope she will support me and tell her that no one wants to go through what we go through and if we didn't have to, we wouldn't. Also that my-step kids and step-grand-kids as well as my extremely conservative county is such that at my age I want the physical relief and will privately do the dressing and schedule my female appearance days and go from there. 

 

I know I've asked but my scenario is my wife caught me gray marketing estrogen, progesterine and blockers 5 years ago and said she wouldn't leave unless I wouldn't see my pschologist and work it out. I stopped my gray market, had prostate issues that are now corrected BUT the pschologist continues to work on depression issues and told me it was ok to fantacize but not actualize. I went for a while and stopped. 

 

Now - my disphoria has come back gangbusters and THANK GOD with the help of Dr. Dara Hoffman-Fox and Dr. Z gender health specialist YouTube channels and even more - finding this incredible website I found received more support, guidance and love from many of you who are similar to me or at least can totally relate to my pain.

 

Thank You.

 

Love,

 

Shay

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Congratulations!

 

1 hour ago, Shay said:

the pschologist continues to work on depression issues and told me it was ok to fantacize but not actualize. I went for a while and stopped. 

 

I'd still love to know their reasoning for this. Fantasy will keep you going for a while, but it's never enough in the long run.

 

Hugs!

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and it only took me 5 years to figure out

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37 minutes ago, Jackie C. said:
1 hour ago, Shay said:

the pschologist continues to work on depression issues and told me it was ok to fantacize but not actualize. I went for a while and stopped. 

 

I'd still love to know their reasoning for this. Fantasy will keep you going for a while, but it's never enough in the long run.

 

Hugs!

 

I can't help but think this was their personal beliefs interfering with proper treatment.  IMO, that makes for irresponsible practice.

 

Congratulations, Shay!  That is really exciting news and I'm happy for you.  Your doctors are moving faster than mine.

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all smiles here - I'm signed up and raring to have my HRT consult on July 2 (my Independence Day of sorts)

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