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A Thought Of My Family

Guest Amanda_Henderson

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I am at the moment, sitting in a petro parking lot in Larmie Wy, with a lot of thoughts wandering around my head. One that is making me very very sad that I want to cry, again. I have a load of 3 ft. round steel pipe that needs to go to Medicine Bow Wy. Has to be there first thing Monday Morning, I stoped by my house in on my way out, had to pick up a few items and when I walked through the door my 2 year old neice came running up for her hug, like she normaly dose. She gave me a big hug and looked up at me with eyes to say "Please Come off the road. I want you off the road." :(

I was at home for about 10 min. She would not let me go. When I tried to put her down She would wrap her arms tighter around my neck, so I sat down with her in my lap and arms When it was time for me to have to go. (I couldn't park by my house for very long because I had to trailor with me and Fort Collins has a problem with truckiers that take semis with trailors on there side streets.) It finilly took her mother to have to pull her arms from around me. When she did she started crying and was tring to reach out for me.

Because of that I am really thinking about getting off the road. I really love the road, but thinking of that 10 min. that I spent at the house has me in limbo Stay on the road, or Go home for good.

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Oh amanda,

I know how hard it is to change careers and in this economy but I can't even imagine how you must feel when your neice won't let you go.

If it was your daughter everyone would say get a regular job and stay there, but with a niece thay might tend to go she'll get over it.

I personally would not want her to get over it, I am 57 and have no children and was fine with that until I shot a wedding a couple of weefs ago and there was alittle girl the youngest with three brothers in tux shirts and pants, she was dressed the same with her long curly black hair in a loose ponytail.

She was terribly shy and clung to her parents and hid her face from everyone.

After the ceremony everyone was outside talking to the Bride and Groom and as I stood ther watching and waiting for them to get ready to come back in for group pictures I let my hand fall to my side and I felt something, I looked down and she had taken my hand and was looking up at me smiling - she let go and buried her face in her mother's side.

She did that twice more but on the thirs time, when it was time to go in, she didn't let go, she just smiled and when it came time for her to be in the pictures she would look straight at me and do whatever I asked her to do.

If I could have taken her home with me, I would have.

Love ya,

Sally

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I personally would not want her to get over it, I am 57 and have no children and was fine with that until I shot a wedding a couple of weefs ago and there was alittle girl the youngest with three brothers in tux shirts and pants, she was dressed the same with her long curly black hair in a loose ponytail.......

*hugs both of you* :( Sigh, I had similar feelings when I did weddings too... family is wonderful... i always wish i had a full wholehearted family... Of course, it's up to you though... I wish I could have a family, but for me... I chose my career right now.

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Weepy days happen when thinking on family. Rain forecast?

My parents are gone and i cry over that - a little like a gentle rain.

My firstwife died age 28 - i try to not cry, then comes a violent thunderstorm.

My son is 29 and lives in Chicago, i love him so and he is so far away - cooling autumn rains fall

My daughters live here - they support me - but not as much as i thought, I just found out. Blustery gusts, with occasional rain mixed in..

And my sisters live 850 miles away, but are coming to see me - Bibles in hand - today, to save me... somehow, its very cloudy and threatning.

So love the children. Our childhood and theirs is fleeting...

Lizzy

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It gets lonely out on the road. I've been there. You have nothin' but time to think and much of this thought is devoted to family and friends. I hope you make a decision you're comfortable with.

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Yes I've been there too, not trucking, but on the road...

I spent almost 10 years doing that and decided that was enough.

Now I'm home every night and have a short drive to work.

I hope you can decide what will work the best for you.

{HUGS}

Ashlee

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