Ah therapy

[Hellothere]

Idk what else to title this ha ha

 

I  had a therapy appointment todau. Shes the third therapist now. Im like losing hope on finding a good one. First one was sevey under educated on trans topics, wasted a year. Second was WAY to pushy for hormones. Thisone. Idk how i feel yet. She seemed done with me at times. But she was perfectly nice and understanding. Asked questions, the usual. Seems decently trans educated. Idk if its my lack of fairh or...? Ill kerp with her till im sure. I just dunno. It mught be my trust issues too. Or that its through a screen. Like she was nice and all i kust. Ahh idk. Idk maybe she just woke up? Maybe she didnt get sllep. She just seemed tired at some answers.  Im torn between dustrust and my giving benefit of the doubtness. 
 

 

Aaaaa therapy js stressful sometimes. 

[SaraAW]

There is something called screen fatigue that is being studied. From what I’ve read, people are burning out emotively as a result of over emoting on video calls to try and make up for the loss of fidelity through screens and lack of some non-verbal cues that cannot be captured through screens. Maybe this could explain some of the things you saw from the therapist. 
 

Maybe they were tired or they were thinking or it could be one of a million other things. It takes awhile to learn everyone’s communication idiosyncrasies. We all communicate slightly differently than each other, both verbally and non-verbally. This is why my training as an investigator taught me to first work on establishing a rapport, then start with simple unrelated and innocuous questions and study how your subject responds. The more time spent in this stage, the better you will be at identifying their responses when you get to tougher topics and they begin deception or try to guard. There is more to it than that, but what I’m trying to say is, one brief session is not enough to begin to be able interpret someone’s behaviour and the motives behind them. 
 

Then we have or own biases that we can project onto the other person and end up misreading their cues. 
 

Time and bilateral trust are what build rapports. Give it a few honest sessions. If you have trouble with trust, start small with a few of the smaller things to test the waters. 
 

Also, licensed therapists are required to keep your trust unless you pose immediate harm to yourself or others. Failing to keep your trust will result in them losing their ability to practice. Pretty strong motivation to keep your trust.

 

I hope your next session goes better. Don’t be afraid to talk to your therapist about how you thought your therapist was responding to you. It is valuable to both you and your therapist to know how you each are reading each other. 
 

Hugs!