Intro

[Sara_Leighanne]

Hi my name is Sara and I honestly do not know if I belong here. I just want someone or anyone to talk to about my dysphoria.  I am the male gender but my brain is mostly female if there is such a thing.

 

A bit of history, I went through the idea of social transitioning 12 years ago and did so for 6 months time. I lived and passed as a woman. Honestly it did not make me happy, at all. To me it was a lie at least physically. I detransitioned and went back to living as a male. I had come to realize that no amount of surgery, hormones or make up were ever going to make my body female. My chromosomes would never be XX. I have been largely content with my decision and stand by it. I have even achieved a level of happiness with my life. Ever so often, the woman inside has to have an outlet. So lately I have taken up a female persona as a pseudonym to live virtually. There is a level of dishonesty I suppose as I do not reveal all of the details. All anyone knows is that I am a writer. There are rules too, I never get involved with anyone personally in chats or forums. Perhaps this is a bad idea and perhaps not. I just am trying to find a way to express myself. Anyone else here have a similar life?

[VickySGV]

Welcome to the Forums Sara.  This is not a dating site, but dialog between members happens as to making progress through gender issues helps both sides, and we have a group here that likes to talk to each other about where they are going.  You set the limits for you though is a basic concept for us. We are a safe outlet for gender issues however.

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Sara.  Please look around the forums and contribute to the discussions and ask questions.  We're here to help if we can.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[Sara_Leighanne]

Thank you:)

[KayC]

Hi Sara! nice to meet you and Welcome!
You've found a great place to explore your own feelings and possibly connect with those who are in a similar state of Questioning.

I have dysphoria also, that I can be sure of.  I am just starting therapy, so to get some of the answers to my own levels of Questioning I hope the process is successful.  You didn't mention therapy for yourself, but I assume you've been there, done that, too?

 

The one thing I am determined to hold on to is that there aren't any "rules" about what label we need to carry with us.  Just need to feel comfortable in our own skin and lifestyle.  Hope your journey here helps with that too❣️

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Sara,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf ?

[Sara_Leighanne]

  You didn't mention therapy for yourself, but I assume you've been there, done that, too?

Yes I have, unfortunately that wasn't productive. Everyone has an agenda it seems. Honestly just someone to talk to would be great. Physically I am content well as content as I can be without downloading my brain into a female body.:-> I believe my issues are very complex and have delved into why, how, and any solution in depth. 

So you are in Japan? Japanese is my second language even though it has been 14 years since I have been able to speak it. Likely have forgotten much of it though. Nice to meet you and thank you for responding.

Sara

[Sara_Leighanne]

Thank you Timberwolf for the welcome and the hug:)

[KymmieL]

Welcome Sara, most of us dysphoric here in one way of the other. You are welcome whom every you are wither you are male, female,, something in between,  I think we would accept you if you where an Irish Setter.  Feel free to ask question  or just say HI.

 

Hugs,

 

Kymmie

[Sara_Leighanne]

I love Irish Setters!!!  Actually I love dogs in general. Thank you for your kind words!!

[lewlew]

Hi Sarah,

 

I really get what you mean. I feel like whenever I do something it doesn't feel right every time. I am glad to see you have found this place and you will find similar people here =). 

[SaraAW]

Welcome Sara! You have a beautiful name ?. This is a wonderful place for

self-exploration, support and there are plenty of ears that are more than willing to listen. 
 

Dysphoria is something I too experience, but since I have started my transition, I get to experience its opposite too. 
 

look forward to hearing more about your journey. Hugs!

[Sara_Leighanne]

Thank you. Your name is quite awesome too;)