I just can't get rid of Denise.

[Denisenj]

Well today Denise had to get a manicure what a nice color and even though I stopped HRT her fire still remains strong. I was diagnosed with gender dysphoria along with a couple of other diagnosis my first therapy session is this Thursday. I don't know if the first time  going   I should go dressed as Denise.. 

    My nails are done and I will have a little bit of eye makeup on. It just feels right being a woman. Hopefully I will find a woman who accept me.it's hard to tell in a picture but this color is like has a little bit of sparkle to it and it's like a deep deep dark blue. Still haven't got the nerve to get gel yet in case I have to take it off ..I don't care I even went to the casino today with this on..

[Jani]

Denise I hate to break it to you dear, but she's not going away!  I would certainly go to your appointment as Denise.  She is the focus of all this after all.  

 

You will find someone! 

I like the color and I'm sure it look smashing in person!  I don't do gels as I tend to beat up my nails so I change the color regularly.  My spouse discovered gels and loves them.  

 

All my best, 

Jani

[Denisenj]

Yes I had my first therapy session this past Thursday. I kind of like gave a hint of Denise in what I was wearing  and with me showing a manicure and pedicure. It felt good to talk about how I feel. You're right Denise isn't going anywhere soon. and she feels more confident. Today I went and saw my other brother and I felt so confident about how well my nails look I didn't take off the Polish. My brother his wife his four kids their kids  didn't treated me any different .. That was my first time having them see me with my nails done..We went to a winery next door to my brother's house and I interact with a lot of people and everybody was nice to me. It was hard not to notice my feminine shaped fingers with the sparkly polish, but nobody said anything sarcastic to me. That made me feel good. I was basically in guy mode with just pair of womens skinny jeans sneakers and a regular long sleeve t-shirt. I didn't know what to expect . I don't know if I'm really trans gendered, but terms like gender-neutral or non-binary might seem to fit. was a giant leap.. they knew that I crossdress but I never showed them that side of me before. . It feels good to be yourself and not make excuses.

[Jani]

Looks like a fun day.