Doing

[Bobbie Scott]

I was

[Lee H]

You were? You ok, Girl? Safe from the storms, I hope ....

~~Leah

[Bobbie Scott]

Sorry, I hit the send button by accident. I was going to post I got approved to be put back on hormones today. Pick them up after I get my blood work done tomorrow. I was on them before, but I didn't take them like I was supposed to. I was taking half doses so my body wouldn't change as quick. Was trying to hide it from my girlfriend. Didn't work. She caught on when my breasts started to show. So I quit them for 3months. She broke up with me again.  I'm not sure if it's related or not, but I  went for a physical and it showed a high psa count. I had to have 2 biopsies and an mri done. Luckily it just shows suspicious material. I have to go back in 6 months for another psa count. I learned an expensive lesson about hormones and taking them properly. 1st time I took them I went through planned parenthood. This time I'm going through my primary care physician. Shes really nice ,and has been helping me through it all. 

[Lexi C]

doing or done?

[Bobbie Scott]

Have to do blood work tomorrow. She sent a prescription. To the pharmacy, and told me to get my blood work done, before I started taking them. 

[AmberM]

Sorry to hear you had some trouble with the first round and then the high PSA. Following doctor's orders with any medication is paramount. I am on some medications for depression that require regular blood monitoring already, so I luckily am not worried about that part as much to start HRT.

 

Best of luck with round 2 of starting agian.

[Bobbie Scott]

Had my blood work done, picked up my hormones the same day. Been on them about 3 days now. Today's been a bummer. My girlfriend told my mom about the hormones. She knew about me cross dressing. I ve never shown anyone in my family.  Not looking forward to telling my family. 

[Jani]

They'll get over it.  And if not you know where you stand with them.  Why would your girlfriend do that? 

[Bobbie Scott]

Because she's angry and hurt.

[AmberM]

Being forcibly outed is never a good thing. I am sorry to hear that you had to go through that experience.

 

I can remember the first time when I thought I might be trans in High School, and my mom found my stash of her clothes hidden in my room. My mom berated me asking what was wrong with me, and even told the whole family about it during a holiday dinner. I felt like something was wrong with me, and it was not comfortable at all.

 

Be as honest as you want to be with them, and know that you're not responsible for their happiness. You are only responsible for own happiness. At least that is what my therapist keeps trying to remind me as my date comes forward.

[Bobbie Scott]

Sorry I  disappeared. Laid down and fell asleep. My mom hasn't said to much,except to just be careful about what I do.Because it effects my kid's and grandchildren. I know she means well. But they make it sound like I'm doing something wrong or perverted. 

[AmberM]

Maybe this is where with time they will come to see a happier you. I feel the "wrong and perverted" thing is a common thread that comes from those who don't understand. Their thought is it is something for a sexual thrill, when in fact, it is something deep rooted inside of us. I am trying to keep it in mind with my own coming out process, that maybe in time they will come to see how much happier you are because you are able to be a more authentic version of yourself.

[Bobbie Scott]

I hope so. But I don't think I'll be turning back this time.