Does I am a transgender?

[Ivan]

Ivan, 29.

 

Do you think my desire to become a transgender is something very serious or it’s just nothing serious? I don’t remember exactly, but my first thoughts regarding being transgender was like 5-6 years old (not with a childhood). Due to period of this time those thoughts visit my mind and I am very suffering that I cannot implement my dream into reality.

I like sexual women closes and always wanted to wear it, however, I told myself that it’s not really serious and its malicious things which I shouldn’t pay attention for.

However, with some time those thoughts didn’t leave my mind, but growth with more and more power.

I then didn’t perform anything to this case; however, I did a huge mental disease to myself because I ignored my desire; illness somehow connected with my desire to become a transgender, because I wanted something by being a transgender, however, I didn’t get it, so I has completely ruined my psyche that I am ignoring my desires. It‘s hard to explain, (closes is just closes) but it comes deep from mind, and the fact that I can’t explain or don’t see something does not means that there are no problems, by no means,

I don’t think I am related only with women closes, I think the reason is somewhere deeper and there is nothing related to closes, however, clothes is also important part of my desire.

Actually, I very love myself. I think that good clothes and hormones make me feel look like a girl or like a women; thus, I will get much more attention from all kind of people.

About hormones I think it’s a must for me (I think I should gorge them, not to use them) to speed up process of being more women like as fast as possible.

I would like to notice that I am not a crossdressers (related only with closes), I am more like MtF.

Also please note that I am Russian, so half posts here (in  forum) I might just didn’t understand, so please, make it easy while post.

[MaryEllen]

Hello Ivan,

 

Welcome to TransPulse. Thank you for sharing  your story with us. Feel free to ask any questions you may have. We'll answer to the best of our abilities.

 

MaryEllen

[Bri2020]

Welcome Ivan,

None of us can answer many of those questions, it up to you to truly decide. I recommend finding a therapist to help you figure it out.  Don't gorge on hormones though. Taking more is dangerous and doesn't make thing happen faster.  Talk to a doctor.

Bri

[Jackie C.]

Hello Ivan! Lovely to meet you!

 

@Bri2020 is 100% right on the hormones. Your body can only absorb so much at a time and overdosing can have dangerous, permanent side effects. If that wasn't scary enough, hurting yourself with self-medicating can make it impossible for you to safely transition in the future. Only ever take hormones under the supervision of a doctor who knows what they're doing.

 

Secondly, your English is much better than my Russian. The best I can do is English with a Russian accent.

 

So yeah! Welcome to TransPulse. Please feel free to look around and ask questions. We're here when you need us.

 

Hugs!