Hi I'm Tracy

[Tracy]

I'm glad I found you. I guess I'm just like most of you so let's see. At 5 the teacher ask if you like blue or pink, when you say pink she tells you boys like blue. At 10 your mother finds you wearing her clothes or your sisters and playing with dolls. At 12 you try shoving all the hangie down things back up, you don't like them- where's your boobs. At 14 you want to go to your first girl/boy dance in a party dress with this really cute guy at school but you can't so you don't go. You kiss your first girl and like it but something doesn't feel right. Somewhere along the line your parents send you to see the doctor or threaten to send you to military school to toughen you up or you've been picked on bullied whatever. You decide to play the game, get married, have children and try to hide all your feminine traits so you seem distant at times or indifferent when you aren't really. You might cross dress, have an affair with a girl or guy, and wonder why does my life feel so out of balance when you already know the answer......... LOL! Everyone's story varies , I guess! I hope to chat more, hear other but  women's stories, that's the highlights of mine

[Cyndee]

Hi Tracy, welcome to trans pulse forums, and thanks for your intro post

 

You've discovered the right place to discuss such things, so sit yourself down, have a look around, and see what you've found.

 

Join the conversations, start your own topics or answer others it's up to you, post away as the mood strikes ya

 

Welcome hugs

 

Cyndee

[Tracy]

Thank you Cyndee,  I'm looking now, LOL It's always nice to know you aren't completely alone.

[Elizabeth Star]

Hi Tracy.

[Jackie C.]

Salutations @Tracy! Lovely to meet you!

 

No, you are certainly not alone. 

 

Hugs!

[Jani]

Hello Tracy,  Welcome on board!   You're story is common to many here.  You'll fit right in so join in the conversation! 

Cheers, 

Jani

[Heather Shay]

Welcome welcome welcome @Tracy you have indeed found the perfect place and yes - it sounds REAL FAMILAR - thanks for sharing and always know you have a home here and a fantastic group of ladies who support give advice based on experience if asked - and love you unconditionally - I cannot say how much I have found the love and comfort and support I so desparately needed here.

Shay

 

[Tracy]

Thank you for the warm welcoming comments, it's nice to feel welcome for a change! hugs to all.

[Mmindy]

5 hours ago, Tracy said:

Everyone's story varies , I guess! I hope to chat more, hear other but  women's stories, that's the highlights of mine

Hey there Tracy,

 

Welcome to TransPulseForums. You're so right about how close our stories are with some variances. You will find like minded people here to chat with and feel comfortable knowing you won't be judged.

 

Best wishes, stay positive, and safe

 

Mindy???

[Tracy]

Thank you for the welcome.

[KayC]

23 hours ago, Tracy said:

I guess I'm just like most of you so let's see.

Yep!  Sounds verrrrryyy familiar Tracy!  Welcome to the crowd ?

 

Its is a GREAT place to finally feel "at home" and where you can speak openly.  Looking forward to hearing more from you❣️

 

Deep breaths ... one step at a time

[Tracy]

Thank you Kay, everyone has made me feel so welcome!

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Tracy,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf?

[Ivy]

Welcome Tracy

On 9/6/2020 at 9:28 AM, Tracy said:

You decide to play the game, get married, have children and try to hide all your feminine traits

Same

[Erikka]

Hei alle sammen,

Yes Tracy, it is all so familiar.  Or you play football to please your dad and cringe when you have to dress down, or you join the military hoping that finally all the crazy -crap- things you're feeling and thinking will go away but instead you come home From a war still feeling the same way but now on top of those feelings you have PTSD nightmares from doing things and seeing things you should never have been involved with. and then you get married for all the wrong reasons , kids come along, a job in a non-trans-friendly profession, and somewhere down the road your world implodes, then one morning you wake up, shave your legs and put on a dress and the only regret and shame you have is...why didn't I do this sooner. 

Velsignelser

Erikka

[Elizabeth Star]

I can relate to so much of this.

[Emily michelle]

Welcome Tracy. I can relate to those feelings too.

[Tracy]

I feel like I'm at home, now I'm about to cry....thank you everyone!!!!!

[Abi]

Hi @Tracy,

    Nice to meet you. I can relate to your introduction just like many here have already said. This is a great place to make friends, share experiences and celebrate each other's success. Welcome to the party!

 

Abigail 

[Tracy]

thank you Abi!

[Susan R]

On 9/6/2020 at 6:28 AM, Tracy said:

Everyone's story varies , I guess! I hope to chat more, hear other but  women's stories, that's the highlights of mine

Hi there Tracy, Welcome! Yeah...there are differences in the details but the stories themselves are nearly always the same. You’ve probably figured out that it doesn’t just go away by ignoring and suppressing it like I did for many years. There are so many stories here like yours that I’m sure you’ll have no difficulty finding several like yours that you will relate to.

 

I’m glad you decided to join us. Share as much of your journey as you wish. I would enjoy reading more.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

[Lexi C]

Dam Girl you crazy!  but so are the rest of us. Glad you found TP.  

Be safe, BE Proud and KICK ASS!

 

[Confused1]

Hi Tracy,

 

Welcome to TransPulse.

 

I will add something to the list: I come close to being drafted for Vietnam. I didn't like my hangie things and was embarrassed by them. I was more worried about having to shower with a group of men than I was at the possibility of being shot.

 

I think you will fit in here.

 

Hugs,

Mike