Don't Know

[Guest With Faith Or Flames]

So I haven't thought about being a girl in quite some time. Im not sure what that means. I've been somewhat more comfortable with being in the male body I was born with but it bothers me slightly sometimes. What does this mean?

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Dear Faith,

Don't worry hon!! It is quite OK to feel what your feeling. There is no wrong way to feel about your gender. Just go with your feelings Faith. As you allow yourself to feel what you feel without fear you will settle onto who you are. Faith, it is OK!! What does this mean?.... You are simply growing Faith

Love

bernii

[Guest Donna Jean]

It means that you have doubts.....you're not positive that you are what felt a while ago....

We all have doubts....

But, that's why we go to a gender therapist...to make sure that we don't make a huge mistake and do something that we won't want later!

But, Hon....it's not at all unusual....

Many of us have feelings that come and go....some times far worse than others....

Don't do anything unless you've gotten good help from a therapist...

Be careful, Hon.......

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

[Guest Christy.dancer]

So I haven't thought about being a girl in quite some time. Im not sure what that means. I've been somewhat more comfortable with being in the male body I was born with but it bothers me slightly sometimes. What does this mean?

Are you full-time transitioning yet? I'll admit, I wake up some mornings, and think about the journey ahead of me, and it seems overwhelming. Then again, I'm full-time transitioning, so I get out of bed, put on my clothes and makeup, and look in the mirror and what I see is a girl. Everything else is just medical.... ya know?

[Guest AniStacy]

If you're full-time transitioning, its easy to overlook the doubt.

I think the earlier steps are much harder, well they we're for me.

Especially admitting it to myself. Wow!

<3 Stacy

[Guest julia_d]

strewth.. some days are worse than others. I guess until it's all done there is always a little voice somewhere that says "but wouldn't it just be easier to carry on like this"

That comes back time and time again.. it's just a part of finding yourself. At least 25 years I listened to that voice until one day it all fell apart. That few months is a bit of a blank now.. I have very few blank periods but I lost at least 6 months of my memories and only came to living somewhere else and dressing differently.. then my chain carries on but full time inside a girl.. Guess the old me had to die to let the new me out. Even now some days it's there.. whispering in the back of my brain.. when things get very bad or I get knocks or I'm under a lot of stress... BUT.. I found me.. I know who I am now and what that little voice says I tried and it doesn't work. I can't live that lie. The me that voice relates to doesn't exist any more.

The not thinking about it so much is probably you coming to acceptance of you and finding yourself.. I bet if you compare a picture of you today with one taken a year ago there will be a big difference, even without any treatment. That kind of just happens. There isn't any rush.. honest.. take your time and just go with the flow and where your life takes you because transitioning is like anything else.. peoples mileage varies and everybody has to go at their own pace. My pct documentation is quite clear that people will start to transition and then some will take months or even years off while they deal with doubts or other personal things. In my case it was dealing with burying both my parents and all the attendant junk, then I had a very dear friend kill themselves... drug addiction and terminal illness.. oops.. but all through that I knew I was me and where I was going.. I just had to put things on hold for a while to deal with it all.

What I'm trying to say is.. It's not unusual to need a timeout from the big emotional things that are going on.. it's just your brain handling something which it probably finds hard going sometimes and takes a break from pushing at.. what does that other 85% of our brains do anyway?.. there must be at least a little self protection circuitry in there or we would all just frazzle out .. (Paula the psychologist again)