Newest Therapist leading me to HRT :

[JoniSteph]

Not Sure if the right place to post but. ......

 

After working with a therapist for various issues over a period of time nearing 2 years. I was though our interactions as being identified as being Transgender - MtF. This fact was behind a lot of other identified problems. Too bad this was not diagnosed much earlier than 69 years of age (now 71) as it would have come so much easier for me. But at least now I have begun the journey of my life. Become the woman I was meant to be.

 

Fast forward to this year when my therapist retired just before COVID hit. I was left in no-mans or womans land for months until 3 months ago when I was assigned a new therapist (phycologist) familiar with WPATH and Transgender clients needs.

 

Thanks to working with her, I have progressed to actually making the big step and have gained the confidence to apply my make up, wig and dress as I would in my house. I now venture out in public more and more each week and worry less about what others may think. If they have a problem then it is on them but actually, I have not seen any negative reaction as yet in any of my adventures out. I do not go to the malls or any high volume people gathering places. I have gone to 2 different Doctors appointment that have not seen me dressed as a woman and both first impressions were that they did not "recognize me". Loved it and blushed.

 

Back in February, my GP had sent in a referral to and Endocrinologist to see me. The Endo said she would upon receiving a Letter of Assessment.  Mt therapist at the time was not qualified so I went looking for someone qualified. The was about the time my therapist informed me that she was leaving me but she was trying to get someone else qualified to take me on. The day we went into lockdown was the day I received a call from the new therapist. So when the restrictions were lifted enough for us to meet until now, I now have my Lett of Assessment and a Date with the Endocrinologist for the end of January, 2021. Finally. Oh Happy Day.

 

Sorry for this being so long and out of chronological order, but had to save the best part for the last. Possible HRT in the new year.

 

Big Canadian Hugs to all

JoniSteph

[VickySGV]

Good for you young lady.

 

It makes the ocean of life much calmer for sure.  My HRT started at age 61 and I am now 72 and life is so much more mellow and free.

[Astrid]

2 hours ago, JoniSteph said:

Too bad this was not diagnosed much earlier than 69 years of age (now 71) as it would have come so much easier for me. But at least now I have begun the journey of my life

@JoniSteph Just a vote of support for you taking these steps!  As someone who came out at age 69, and began HRT last December (and am now 72), I was in very similar circumstances. And I'll echo what @VickySGV said, HRT has really helped mellow my life...and reduce the stress of dysphoria.  I'm certainly more emotional and emotive, but the roller coaster ride of depression and anxiety is very much in my rearview mirror at this point.  I can focus on the positive effects that HRT (estradiol in my case) has afforded me, and I'm in a much better place now.

 

2 hours ago, JoniSteph said:

I now venture out in public more and more each week and worry less about what others may think.

I like that attitude!  It's turned out that a lot of the stress over how others will react was much ado about nothing.

 

With best wishes,

 

Astrid

[JoniSteph]

Much love and appreciation @VickySGV and @Astrid for the kind words and support. 

 

Only time, exercises and sessions will help deal with the dysphoria of being a white haired Neanderthal woman with lack of development in some areas and learning how to be a woman without guidance from a true resource. Thankfully for the internet and all you ladies here.

 

Big Canadian Hugs to all

JoniSteph