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It's becoming very normal for me to be a woman

Denisenj

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is who I should beToday is the first day of put in my longer earrings I got like 8 pair now I pulled out this studs it was been like 7 weeks. I had my nails done I had a fill and I always had a stigmatism about red well I got red and they're long and beautiful. I go to safe places I came down to the Ocean club in Atlantic City and I feel very pretty tonight being  a woman is what I was meant to be. If I was attracted to men I'd be loved right now. It's lonely when you feel like you're trans lesbian.

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4 hours ago, Denisenj said:

I feel very pretty tonight being  a woman is what I was meant to be.

As well you should. Wow, you do look very nice @Denisenj . I really like that grey top and your hair. It’s nice to see your transformation. Keep it up girl. You’ll soon have to fend off all the men if you’re not already doing so...especially if this keeps up! ?

 

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PS: Like your new nails too. I’m jealous. I’m giving my nails a rest for a week so no polish or gel...just sanding and shaping. I’ve been wearing nails for 18 months straight now and was told by “the expert” (ok, my wife) that they need a break?.

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Those nails remind me of those speckled malted eggs to get during Easter. I think they're really cute

 

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I went to my favorite sports bar and the younger brother help me brush my hair and put it in a ponytail she said she was having fun as was I. I don't know I'm dressing more and more everyday it seems like

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On 11/30/2020 at 9:54 PM, Denisenj said:

Those nails remind me of those speckled malted eggs to get during Easter. I think they're really cute

 

Yes! that was my exact thought when I saw this too. It’s been years since I’ve had those but we also used to get them for Easter as children. I was such a fan! 

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I meant to say the owners 20 year old daughter help me put my hair in a ponytail. I need to proofread when I'm voice texting

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On 11/30/2020 at 9:46 PM, ElizabethStar said:

Your's look so nice. mine......not so much.

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Love those nails!

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13 hours ago, Denisenj said:

I went to my favorite sports bar and the younger brother help me brush my hair and put it in a ponytail she said she was having fun as was I. I don't know I'm dressing more and more everyday it seems like

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You look great!

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I got my hair done today. I had to stop at the store right after and got a "Can I help you ma'am?" as soon as I walked through the door even with half my makeup washed off. I feel amazing.

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2 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

I feel amazing

 

YES!!  Simple things like that are wonderful because they affirm what you've worked so hard for (and deserve!).

 

Hugs,

 

Astrid

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4 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

I got my hair done today. I had to stop at the store right after and got a "Can I help you ma'am?" as soon as I walked through the door even with half my makeup washed off. I feel amazing.

Sweet.

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@Denisenj You look great!

 

7 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

I got my hair done today. I had to stop at the store right after and got a "Can I help you ma'am?" as soon as I walked through the door even with half my makeup washed off. I feel amazing.

 

I love your success stories, you all

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Yes affirming you as female knowing you weren't born female is the best feeling in the world. I used to be superficial saying you know all I want to do is pass when in reality it's how you feel inside that matters the most

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2 hours ago, Denisenj said:

I used to be superficial saying you know all I want to do is pass when in reality it's how you feel inside that matters the most

I agree that how you feel inside is more important, Denise. Although IMHO the ‘desire to pass’ may seem superficial but it’s also a natural coping mechanism to combat the lack of understanding and compassion within our society...to fit in better as ourselves among those not willing to accept us as we are. Should we have to pass? No, but there are few in our community that haven’t at one time or another desired to pass as our target gender sometime during our journey. In time, that desire may disappear altogether but it helps us in the beginning of our journey. Even cis woman want to look their best some of the time. The reason they do is not to pass as a woman but to present the best representation of themselves. That’s part of what we in the community do too.

 

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3 hours ago, Denisenj said:

how you feel inside that matters the most

I agree with this. But "passing" certainly helps that feeling.  At least it's a lift for me, even if it is so seldom.

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I agree how you feel inside is important. Yet, passing/not pass can effect how you feel. Kind of a give-and-take. I know passing is not important for everyone but for me it is. A this point if I was go to out and get clocked by a couple few people I can shake that off no problem but a room full I would have a melt-down. I admit it, I've been struggling with the trans label. I know labels aren't important. Now I want to push this a little further. Hypothetical conversation: Are you a boy or a girl? Girl. But you look kind of like a boy. I'm a girl. Are you trans? Yes. Then why did you say you're a girl? Granted I know I'm a woman on the inside but I need to see it on the outside. I need everyone to see it. Even if I could say I'm a woman and just be accepted, It wouldn't do. I need the whole package.

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You know for me ,trying to pass and trying to look the best I can as a female is important to not getting hassled by those who don't accept. I'm not going to lie I enjoy the attention from the younger women and I gobble up the compliments. It's as if I feel more successful as a woman than a man

As a man I felt like a failure, but as a woman I've gotten so much more attention in a positive way..

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10 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

@AbiThanks. I love butterflies. I friend gave it to me for Valentine's day last year. It's a butterfly knife.

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That's awesome. I don't need the knife but love the butterfly part for sure.

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Butterflies are extremely versatile for decorating, accessories, patterns but first time I have seen one as a knife, I love it :)

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