Ftm maybe

[Confused202]

Hi guys!!! I introduced myself 2 or 3 years ago then fully went back into the closet and stopped all thoughts. So I'm here to re introduce myself!

I'm still working on a name that feels right, I started as Chris, but lately I'm thinking Beau feels better. Anyway, you can use either name I'm still unsure. 

I'm in my mid 30s, just began my gender questioning about 5 years ago, and am married (to a man) with kids.

I started as a typical Tom boy. I guess I never knew I was trans because I didn't fall into the stereotypes of a ftm person. I have no desire to be with a woman. There is so much more but this is just an intro so I'm just touching on stuff.

If I ever come out ill have to come out as a gay man, and I would essentially force my husband out as a Bisexual man. He says he's okay with that. He is Bisexual and I'm the only one that knows. He's never voiced this to anyone and only ever acted on it once. 

I'm so full of questions and fears about all of this. Even 5 years into my "questioning phase". I'm unsure ill ever get beyond questioning myself. But I like to discuss it as much as possible.

 

Thanks for reading!

[Charlize]

Welcome back Chris.  For me transition was perhaps a lifetime process.  Questioning is a big part of it.  In the past that wasn't really possible for me.  I had very few (if any) role models.  My feelings were even further complicated as i wasn't attracted to men.  How could i be a woman?    The chance to be with others on this journey helped me accept my feelings and find my path.  Therapy helped.  As i opened up about a lifetime of experiences i saw my feelings never changed or disappeared.  Knowing that i only had to decide on what to do. 

Glad your here.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[Vanessa Michelle]

Welcome back Beau! So glad you are joining us once again. That's great! You will figure this stuff out. It's not always easy and can be confusing, at least it was for me for a long time. You're gonna be alright. I hope you feel at home here. ❤️