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Hi everyone! Uh...I'm never good at introductions but I can give it a try.

The years leading up to my 16th birthday were really upsetting for me. There were days I could walk into the bathroom in the morning and actually like what I see, but the majority where ones when I wanted to tear off my breasts (X.x don't like that word...) right that second just to get it over with. It took me about six months to finally try and look for the something that I was feeling online. At first, I thought I was just mentally ill and it had me in a tizzy thinking about all the medications they would want to put me on. I was really scared because it was back then when I had thoughts of suicide. But then I ran into Laura's and got a lot of information. It made me happier to find out I wasn't alone. Took me for ever to register and say hello

Another half year goes by and I've already told my few friends how I feel and they accepted it right away. I knew the biggest hurdled would be to tell my 'rents. So I settled for talking the most difficult one, my mother. She thought I was coming out as a lesbian (I hate using sexual orientation words...feels so mean) which made me angry but I continued to converse with her until she got it right; I want to be a guy and I like men. She said I have to wait until my 18th birthday before I can do anything...which is only 1 year and 5 months away.

Yeah...Sorry for the short story, I've been holding that in for a while.

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Welcome Nicolai,

Come on in and sit down here in the members lounge and I'll get you some pizza and a soft drink.

The smell of the food will bring everyone here, they know it means a new member, but they will also eat some pizza so you'd better take two slices.

There are alot of FTMs here and they will be along shortly.

Just relax, be yourself and know that you are part of a larger community than you had ever imagined.

Welcome to the family!

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Ashlee

Hello Nicolai,

Its so nice that you have joined us. This is a great group of caring, loving people that are here to help each other in a very safe environment.

It sounds like your mother is at least accepting of you, what a wonderful thing to have!

And, to have accepting friends too, just how great is that! :)

Welcome to the playground!

{HUGS}

Ashlee

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Guest Alyssa Leigh

Hi Nicolai

Welcome to the playground everyone is so nice here so make yourself comfortable and more will be by soon to greet you.

Alyssa

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Guest joe0117

Hi Nicolai!

Welcome to the Playground! The people here are warm and friendly. It is a great place to get advice, support, and just meet new people and make new friends! Enjoy the pizza!

Joe

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Guest Donna Jean

Hello, Nicolai!

Nice to meet you, Hon......

Sorry that I got here so late....I've been stranded (tell ya about that later!)

I thought that I smelled pizza, so I ran right over!....lol

I think that you'll like it here with us...lots to read, lots of interesting people, lots of love and compassion!

Just relax and enjoy yoursef.....

HUGGS

Donna Jean

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Guest NicolaiAE

Thank you. I know I will like it here, everyone is very nice (not something I'm used to when on the internet)

There's so much I want to know but for now I believe I'll play it day by day, after all, I still have almost 1 and 1/2 years to go.

This might be too soon to say this but thank you, everyone, for being here. This is the only forum that I actually get to be myself in and not worry about what others think.

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Guest Impossible Princess

Hi Nicolai.

Greetings and Salutations hunny.

First let me give you a nice warm smile to make things seems ok.

Then I want to give you a pat on the back for having the courage to make a post. I know how difficult it can be to write about yourself while trying to keep hold of everything thats going on in your mind. Your doing fantasic.

Be safe and stay well

Impossible Princess

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Welcome to Laura's! I'm sorry that your mom won't let you do anything until you're 18... Maybe that will change, but I know it's unlikely. I know it's tough to just "hold on", but you can be strong and make it for another 17 months if you have to. Ultimately, enduring 17 months will be worth it since you know that every day of your life that follows will be that much better. What's a year and five months in the grand scheme of things? Nothing! So be strong and I know you can do it, even as hypocritical as that is for someone as impatient as me to say XD.

But hey, at least we've got all these great people here to talk to while we slowly go insane, right?! ;) We'll make it. It's not that long.

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Guest NicolaiAE
But hey, at least we've got all these great people here to talk to while we slowly go insane, right?! ;) We'll make it. It's not that long.

I agree LOL. Now that I have people to talk to it's definitely going to be a great next few months.

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Guest Frank67

Hi Nicolai,

My last visit in the introduction forum was some weeks ago but I want to welcome you to this amazing side, too.

I see you met some amazing people and be sure there are lot more. I think you should visit the teens forum for a little hello

Frank

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Guest Marissa Anastasia

Hello, Nicholai, and welcome...I'm glad you finally joined our group and I know you already feel comfortable here...this is a very unusual site and you will see that folks here will speak the truth in love and always have your best interests at heart. Again, welcome!

Love,

Marissa

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