Nonbinary HRT but in the Other Direction

[MayGay]

I really need to have all of estradiol, testosterone, and progesterone. And I'm trying to look for anything to help me but I generally only find stuff like blockers only or low dose E and maybe other things like no breast growth HRT. Hence the going the other way.

 

But some background. I'm amab, bigender, and have been on typical feminizing HRT for just over 2 years and that's been a bit of a bumpy ride because of my liver hating estradiol and converting any and all oral estradiol to estrone with extreme prejudice. But I fixed that with injections.

 

The other part of it is that blockers were extremely effective and virtually ended any T my body was making. I basically floored out at -Dosage amount- in 4 months and stayed there for the most part. The catch is that yeah that's too low for me. And I knew this would be an issue before I started and my plan was to ride it out until I'm done this puberty and change things up, but it's a bit worse than I expected. Some other unexpected things happened as well that aren't related to HRT but are affecting how I feel it's not something I really need to talk about here.

 

And don't get me wrong. In some areas HRT is having a profoundly positive effect on me. Things that felt wrong or absent before starting HRT are so right now. But also some things that were very right before are now very wrong. And I'm not even talking about physical changes, only like how my body functions and feels. The physical changes are largely welcome and anything I don't like I can fix later.

 

So I guess I'm writing this for two reasons. First is that I'm looking for ideas on how I can get through puberty more comfortably hormonally speaking. I've considered microdosing T but even in the best case scenario I don't know how viable that's going to be because I only have access to injections and that might be too much. Ironically testosterone injections are covered for me and estradiol injections aren't.

 

The other help I'm looking for is that I want any information on having like cis man normal levels of T and cis woman levels of E and P. Like assuming I've been through both estradiol and testosterone puberties what effect will it have? What's the best way to go about it? I want to use clomiphene or something similar to turn my own T production back on. But I don't know if there's something else that'll do it better or more efficiently than clomiphene or if I should just go with injections or what. 

 

I'm basically trying to get as much information as I can. I want to be informed on my options. And even in medical papers it's not really mentioned.

[Mx.Drago]

Found some interesting articles, hope they help.

https://www.vice.com/en/article/z3v4nj/beginners-guide-to-microdosing-testosterone-during-transition

 

https://www.genderconfirmation.com/non-binary-microdosing-estrogren