My Name is Shannon - a NoCityGurl Introduction

[NoCityGurl]

Hi everyone,

 

My name is Shannon, AKA NoCityGurl. I am on here as bi-gender. However, I think my therapist is wrong and I am a transgender woman. I have very little interest in having surgeries to change my body. I spent a lifetime becoming comfortable with myself and being in my own skin. I can't help that I appear masculine/male, while my brain and body has felt feminine/female for over 43 years. I came out to my parents and family that I was a girl at age 5. I come from a country family with rural roots in farming and railroad. The one thing I learned from a young age is that not all cis-women wear dresses and makeup. Some cis-women wear jeans, overalls, and tee-shirts most of the time. These were the women that I grew up around and shaped my understanding of what it is to be female.

I wear women's undergarments exclusively. I find no sexual gratification wearing them to confuse myself as a cross-dresser. I wear them because it makes me feel normal. And although I probably still appear masculine or male, if you look closely at my clothing I also wear women's tee-shirts, camisoles, and hunting shirts/sweatshirts. You will also find I am in ladies socks and tennis shoes. In fact, the only typically male article of clothing that I still wear are jeans. My preference in women's clothing just happens to be more rugged and masculine, and appear masculine on me. 

I knew for sure I was a female when I saw my first nude transmasculine male. This guy who just happened to have a vagina actually brought me to tears. I continue to feel that THIS is how nature should have made me. I like looking masculine, but I have dreamed of waking up and having a vagina since as far back as I can remember. If my sexual partners reference my genitalia as male I lose all interest in sex. ALL!!! I thankfully found a redneck husband that mostly doesn't mind me being trans. He refers to me as his wife. He calls me "mom" to our doggie daughter, even around my family who also know I am trans. These days, I feel like I am a transmasculine female. I have also given myself the label of: butch-feminine gurl. But even as I have spent the last two years deeply exploring who I am as a trans woman, I am just beginning as a trans student. There is so much I am learning about the trans community and myself. And that is why I am here. Because we are all unique in some form and/or fashion. And we all have something that we can learn and/or teach each other. And I have stayed away from the trans community for FAR too long. So here I am ... taking my first steps back in our world ... learning more about myself and how I fit in this world. I am so glad to be a part of this world with you. 

[Jackie C.]

Hey Shannon! No shade here, the whole trans thing is do what you need to do to feel comfortable in your own body. No more. No less. It sounds like you've already got a good handle on things. I'm looking forward to getting to know you better.

 

Hugs!

[Audrey]

Hi Shannon, it's nice to meet you and welcome to the Trans Pulse forums. I'm confident you'll find great company among everyone here. This is a warm and friendly community, and a great resource of support and information. Thank you for sharing your story as part of your introduction. It's wonderful to hear you have a loving partner who accepts your gender identity and expression openly! You're absolutely correct that you can express your femininity and be a woman in many ways, not just the stereotypically "feminine" ones that are reinforced by the media and culture. I'm sure you'll feel right at home here, and I look forward to seeing you around!

 

Love,

~Audrey.

[Ivy]

Welcome Shannon.

[BrandiBri]

Welcome Shannon, many others here can share your story. I had no idea that I was a girl, but I did know that I was different from the age of 11. I look forward to getting to know you more.

[Elizabeth Star]

Hi @NoCityGurl, nice to meet you.

[Heather Shay]

@NoCityGurl welcome you have found a community of love and understanding, comfort and listeners and all unconditional advice based on similar experiences and empathy.

[Vanessa Michelle]

@NoCityGurlWelcome to the group!! It's great to have you here and to hear your story!! ❤️

[Andrea Jean]

Welcome shannon....

 

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Shannon,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?