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Am I A Hypocrite?


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Guest Soph

Recently my family has been making an effort (finally!) to call me Sophie and use female pronouns. I feel great about this, of course, but I have trouble with it myself. I often forget to call myself Sophie (in appropriate context, of course)... I know this isn't a big deal, but did anyone else have (or is anyone else having) problems referring to themselves as their real gender? Its just a matter of remembering for me, but I get so embarrassed when I mess it up.

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I have a hard time not, but I am not out to very many people so I have to remember the other direction.

Unless you jump all over anyone else who slips up you are not being a hypocrite.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest amie

I'd love to be addressed as Amie on a daily and I'm sure it would feel nice n' warm when it occured for as long as I'm sure you'd never like to pay a dollar on the day of it's occurance and more so.

Sorry, Dear. Not to be abrasive, but I've always been slap-silly on the sentence-length challenge. lol

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Guest Evan_J
I'd love to be addressed as Amie on a daily and I'm sure it would feel nice n' warm when it occured for as long as I'm sure you'd never like to pay a dollar on the day of it's occurance and more so.

Sorry, Dear. Not to be abrasive, but I've always been slap-silly on the sentence-length challenge. lol

:blink: What'd she say? lol

What Charlie said :P

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Guest Elizabeth K

My therapist calls me Lizzy - so when I talk on the phone I forget - "hello, this is {male name} - so embarrising! Probably adds years to my therapy!

hope this helps

[male name] ooops, I mean Lizzy

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Guest Zabrak
:blink: What'd she say? lol

Don't worry dad, I didn't understand it either. It must be some kind of girl code or something. Girls are weird like that.

@Topic owner

It felt weird when everyone started to call me my name at first, and I would get shy and wouldn't use it myself a few times. But I got over it. It just takes time.

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Guest Amanda_Henderson

The only people that wont call me by my proper name are my parents, but they even seem to be on the double side of things. Shortly after moving to Fort Collins (about 6 or 7 months ago.) My parents when they wanted to get in touch with me have called a friend or two of mine, asked if I would get in touch with them. But insted of using my birth name, they were using my real name, and gender when reffering to me. but when I went over to there house they would alway revert to using my birth name again. (I wish they would use it all the time and not just behind my back.) Due to recent events I have not sponken to my parents in the las two months. & dont really want to just yet. So for now I keep my distance from them.

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Guest Eagledancer

My life partner is hilarious when it comes to how to address me in public or on the phone. I have the caller ID displayed on the television (we have a DISH DVR). It pops up in BIG print so she has time to get her story straight! It goes from Chay~Pegge~Dr.~Mom~a-hole...you have the drift...lol. For me, I really don't care anymore. I have never corrected people throughout my life because I have always been 'mistaken' as a male so my name has never followed any pattern. When I became a doctor, I was adamant that I received an education NOT a title. I have always encouraged people to address me however they feel appropriate - I do ask that it be appropriate however! For myself, I still believe that I am a true reflection of that which I feel is my Creator - a balance of male/female. I am so much a man it hurts. My birth anatomy is just a reminder to me to keep the balance. I actually do little talking myself these days (my speech stays way too slurred and with my Texan-ese accent I sound like I'm doing the backstroke in the bottle), but I can say that I say what I feel.

Is it hypocritical to be you? I am sad that you even have such thoughts. Sometimes we overload the brain with wants, and when the brain short-circuits, our needs come forth. If everybody is honest there are aspects of each gender that are fun and useful. These aspects require different thought and actually different areas of brain function (this has been shown to be factual with PET scans). There are days that I am metrosexual. There are days that I am a sexist pig...lol - rarely have I ever been abject feminine, but I reserve the right for my brain to decide where to function from depending on what is less stressful for my psyche. Finally, my advice is don't worry! You are beautiful because you are you. You are special because this world needs you or you wouldn't be here. Have fun with the things that seem to slip from your lips or thoughts that course your mind. It is simply your brain having a voice or maybe a sense of humor! ~Chay~

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Guest Donna Jean

It'll be OK, Sophie!

It takes time...

Heck My wife and I have known each other 45 years and married 30 of those..she makes an incredible effort to call me Donna Jean, Dee Jay and use she/her....

(Like to the dog..."Riley! Get away from her..she's doing her nails! GIT!)

It isn't always that someone doesn't want to...it's just difficult...over time it will be better...I do the same, Lizzy...I use my male name on the phone when I call someone that I'm out to....DANG, I HATE that!

Sophie...we all do it...not a hypocrite!

HUGG

Donna Jean

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Guest NicolaiAE

I don't know if it's just me, but I'll respond to anything even if its just something like another guy/girls name or "dude with the face" or what ever.

When it comes to me referring myself as Nicolai or Nick, I tend to forget since I'm not really talking in 3rd person very often...then again I do have short term memory loss :)

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Guest Nekomata

I never slip up when it comes to saying the things out loud, but I have come close. In my mind it sounds a bit different and new to me referring to myself as girl or woman when I speak aloud. The biggest speed bumps for me are gender specific nouns. Calling myself King/Queen, Lord/Lady, Master/Mistress. Although, I think it's perfectly fine to call a woman the Lord of something or the Master of something.

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Guest julia_d

It just takes time . When you look back in a few years it will seem silly. I still have some old old documents I need to keep hold of for now.. with a strangers name on them.

I don't respond to my old name. I don't jump if somebody calls it out.. they can't mean me because all the time I have been here I have been Paula. Actually most people call me Kat .. that suits fine, nice and gender neutral.. easy for them.. easy for me.

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