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Sxen

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Honestly, there’s not much of an introduction here.I’m new here. I’m a little lost. I need some advice I think... I’m not sure 

all my life I think I’ve been different? Just in another world compared to people around me. But then when it can to my body things get really complicated I don’t hate it I don’t love it but a lot of the time I despise it lol that’s a contradiction but it’s just ive never felt right in it and it’s always been used against me, I don’t know what to identify as...  I am everything and nothing at all it seems... I know truthfully my body and mind won’t match because biologically I’m female but I just... I don’t even feel like my body is mine. It took me a while but I think I’m GNC at the basis of my identity and maybe I think I should go by them... but that’s... it’s really scary and I’m not even sure  I know no one can give me the answers but still someone to talk to idk someone who has some experience maybe?

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Welcome to the Forums.  Gee I wonder where I have heard your story before??  OHH!! yeah its all throughout our topics and posts here that I have been seeing for the last 10 years.  You are YOU to us here.  A YOU may have one gender or many and that is just fine with us.  Bounce ideas around here, and then go to your Gender Therapist and really get busy on finding out who you are not first, and then taking a wonderful adventure of getting to know yourself.  You are AFAB so already you know you are not 100% female if you have come here, and so you fit what we are here for.  Enjoy your experience here.

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@VickySGV is spot on dear. We're all mad here. ?

 

Welcome to TrangGenderPulse. We can offer you experience, love and support in abundance, but you should also be talking to a gender therapist if you can. Those pesky letters after their names qualifies them for all sorts of things we can't handle professionally. In the meantime, join the discussion when you're ready. We're a pretty accepting bunch and this space is as safe as we can make it. If you need help, talk to the staff and we'll see what we can do. I hope you enjoy your time with us. We're glad you're here.

 

Hugs!

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Dear @Sxen, it's nice to meet you and welcome to the Trans Pulse community. This is a safe and supportive space to talk with others about questions of gender expression and identity who can relate to and share your experience. As Vicky and Jackie C have suggested, a gender therapist would also be a great connection to make while you're exploring these things. Looking forward to seeing you around the forums and getting to know you.

 

Love,

~Audrey.

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Thanks so much unfortunately I’m in no standing to afford a therapist or  coke out to anyone who could possibly help me get one. So slowly but surely I hope to figure things out even if there’s not a definite  conclusion for a while. 

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2 hours ago, Sxen said:

Thanks so much unfortunately I’m in no standing to afford a therapist or  coke out to anyone who could possibly help me get one. So slowly but surely I hope to figure things out even if there’s not a definite  conclusion for a while. 

 

That's OK too sweetie. You're young. You've got plenty of time to figure things out.

 

Hugs!

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