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Nice to meet everyone here. I'm here because I've been struggling with my identity for several years now. I am AMAB, and am generally happy as such, but a part of me has always felt feminine. Normally, these two are in balance, with the male part normally strong, but also at times it feels like the female part of me is stronger, if that makes any sense, and I run into some gender dysphoria. I've never really explored these issues - joys of coming from a small town and internalizing what's supposed to be normal - but I'm slowly figuring out how to express this. Any advice/tips people from people who have had similar issues I wouldn't turn down. Anyways, enough of a rant and nice to meet everyone.

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1 hour ago, identityfun said:

Nice to meet everyone here. I'm here because I've been struggling with my identity for several years now. I am AMAB, and am generally happy as such, but a part of me has always felt feminine. Normally, these two are in balance, with the male part normally strong, but also at times it feels like the female part of me is stronger, if that makes any sense, and I run into some gender dysphoria. I've never really explored these issues - joys of coming from a small town and internalizing what's supposed to be normal - but I'm slowly figuring out how to express this. Any advice/tips people from people who have had similar issues I wouldn't turn down. Anyways, enough of a rant and nice to meet everyone.

Welcome. I can relate somewhat. 

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Hiya and welcome from another new comer.  From my own experiences and interactions with a few friends who like drifting back and forth between male and female I've learned there's an ebb and flow to things for some.  Myself I kinda drifted back and forth when I was in my younger years and only now am I feeling my male side doesn't fit anymore, but the great thing about this world and community is there's as many different ways to be as there are lovely people to be them.  I hope you enjoy the stay and learn more about how to be your best self as we all are.

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Hi @identityfun, nice to meet you. I’ve lived in some small towns and kind of get the mentality. There usually isn’t much room for understanding GNC people. No worries about the rant. I have a tendency to write extremely long posts myself. 

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Welcome to the forum.  You will find a lot of insights here but in the end, everyone's journey is different and their own.  You will absolutely find a lot of love and support here.  My advice to anyone trying to figure things out is to find a gender therapist to help you along the way. It doesn't even have to be a local one because most visits are being done through video.  They are invaluable in helping you gain insight. And, if it ever comes down to it and you desire to transition at some point you will need their recommendations for medical care.  

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Thanks for the warm welcome everyone. I don't think I want to transition, at least at this stage, it's just that I have these two entities within me, if that makes sense, and haven't been recognizing/accepting one of them for far too long.

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@identityfun Welcome to the Transgender pulse forums. Some good advice already has been given. You will find a lot more as you explore the various topics in this forum. This is a loving and supportive environment to question, learn and grow. Good luck on your explorations and I look forward to seeing you around.

 

 

Rachel

 

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@identityfun Welcome - I know you will find this a very supportive forum with folks like you and your age and background and willing to share experiences and advice based on facts and excellent listeners. Again welcome.

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4 hours ago, identityfun said:

Thanks for the warm welcome everyone. I don't think I want to transition, at least at this stage, it's just that I have these two entities within me, if that makes sense, and haven't been recognizing/accepting one of them for far too long.

 

Hi identityfun, Welcome to TransPulse. You will find support here no matter which path you choose. We all have slightly different paths, whether transitioning or not.

 

Hugs,

Mike

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Hi idenityfun,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

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On 2/26/2021 at 8:34 AM, identityfun said:

Thanks for the warm welcome everyone. I don't think I want to transition, at least at this stage, it's just that I have these two entities within me, if that makes sense, and haven't been recognizing/accepting one of them for far too long.

Welcome.

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Hi @identityfun

 

On 2/26/2021 at 8:13 AM, identityfun said:

Normally, these two are in balance, with the male part normally strong, but also at times it feels like the female part of me is stronger, if that makes any sense, and I run into some gender dysphoria. I've never really explored these issues - joys of coming from a small town and internalizing what's supposed to be normal - but I'm slowly figuring out how to express this.

I'm sure that you will, particularly if you follow the advice some members have already provided.

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