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Hi everyone ? As a child if left alone the first thing I would do is try on my moms clothes.  It made me feel special in a way I didn’t really understand. Once a teenager I got too scared to do it much. But once in a while I did. It always made me feel amazing! Then I got a girlfriend and kind of quit. And I’ve been through a few more girlfriends since but the last few years I’ve been too busy with work to date much.  About a year  ago I was scrolling TikTok and happened upon a beautiful trans gender woman just talking about trans gender equality. And memories came flooding back of how good it made me feel to dress up as a woman. Since then I have been shopping for women’s clothes and shaving my legs etc. i have worn women’s clothes again too. it makes me feel amazing! I’ve always had mostly female friends and I don’t like the kinds of activities that most guys like.  I had no idea most of my life that I had all these feelings. I’m Obviously still researching and will keep doing so but I searched looking for a place to learn and become more comfortable with myself and I found this forum.  I feel more feminine than ever and I’m excited to learn more about myself as I allow myself to be more free! Thanks in advance for any help or advice! 

Alexa ❤️

 

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Hi @Alexaa,

 

Your story is very relatable in a lot of ways. I'm so glad that you are taking the time to find your authentic self. ?

 

Welcome to the forums!

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9 hours ago, Alexaa said:

I feel more feminine than ever and I’m excited to learn more about myself as I allow myself to be more free!

Hello Alexaa, Welcome to our forum.? It’s a pleasure to meet you. I think it’s great that you’re experiencing the freedom to explore yourself like you are. That’s one of the many reasons we are all here...to find out more about ourselves through the help and experiences of others. Sharing these things is paramount for our growth and freedom as individuals as you have already started to experience. I wish you the best on your continuing journey. Feel free to share as much or as little as you want. We are here to help in any way we can. I look forward to reading more about you.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

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Thank you all for the welcome! And I definitely will share all I can. I just bought my first nail polish and foundation make up I figured I might as well go a little bit at the time because I have no idea what I’m doing lol

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Hi Alexa. It's nice to meet you. There are some great people here. They've really helped me realize I am just a normal person, who is in the wrong body and that's OK.

 

Makeup and nail polish, a couple on my favorite things. I don't think I've gone a day in the last 3-4 years without nail polish. Definitely won't leave the house with makeup. I try to tell myself I do it the for the practice but the truth is I just like wearing it.

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Hi @Alexaa!  nice to meet you, and Welcome!

I too share many of the same feelings from childhood and teens years and then burying all of that for 40+ years if living a life that I never felt comfortable in.
As you have already discovered (as I did) you have found a wonderful community here to learn, grow, and share.  Its a new beginning for many of us (like you and me) and there are many here who can pass along their experiences.

 

Deep breaths ... one step at a time

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Hello Alexa & welcome! I relate to so much of what you said. I think you will find the wonderful support & love here as I have.

 

Hugs!

Delcina

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