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Hi Everyone 

 

My name of choice is Rania, yet still not formally used yet. I was born and raised in the middle east, in a country that is renowned for having strict religious practices and forcing women to have specific dressing code and until recently was not allowing them even to drive . I was born in Saudi Arabia.

 

My family was very religious, they followed all religious rules strictly like segregating boys and girls in a very early age, taking them to study religion in mosques and private institutions, thus I memorized these instructions at a very young age. However, at that young age as well, I had strong feeling that there was something wrong with me, It was a feeling of incompletion and fear of future. 


I started noticing at the age of 8 may be, my strong tendency to wear my sister clothes, play with them and also noticed a growing sense of upset because I couldnt grow my hair or wear glamorous dress like they do, two years later I tried my first suicide attempt by drowing myself into a bath tub, I believed that coming to this world in this form is a mistake and I should go back to were I was so that I can come again as girl, that attempt failed. six months later I tried my second attempt to cut my private parts and that also failed. 

 

My parents took these incidents lightly as I did not confess anything to them, day after day I started noticing my sisters growing breasts while mine are small and shows no signs of growing up, it was very upsetting to me yet I thought mybe they eat more for their breasts to grow, so I started overeating in hope for my breasts to grow, yet alas it was my belly that started growing, so I had no chance but to ask for consulation and who is the best consultant at this time, it was my science teacher at school. and he told me that the reason you do not experience these changes is because of your private parts 

 

I hated them ( my private parts ) and did everything I could to hurt them, yet I kept growing up and started having a beard, muscles, .. etc as if my identity is running away and fading out in the shadows of my masculinity.

 

Today and after 37 years of struggle, I travelled to Germany and hope to start my Journey !! 

 

Pleased to meet you all and hope to learn more in this forum .

 

Rania

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Hello Rania,

 

Welcome to TransgenderPulse. Thank you for sharing your story with us.  :)

 

MaryEllen

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1 hour ago, MaryEllen said:

Hello Rania,

 

Welcome to TransgenderPulse. Thank you for sharing your story with us.  :)

 

MaryEllen

 

Thank you so much MaryEllen :) Bless your heart

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Welcome Rania! I am happy you found this forum & also that you have found a place you can freely explore your feminine self!

 

Hugs!

Delcina

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6 hours ago, Rania said:

Today and after 37 years of struggle, I travelled to Germany and hope to start my Journey !! 

Congratulations @Rania. This is great news and the beginning of the end to that old battle within. I’m wish you success on your upcoming journey. Knowing your on the right path is half the battle. We’re here for you and support you in your journey. Feel free to reach out with questions and provide us updates as to your progress if you like. 

 

Best of luck,

Susan R?

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13 hours ago, Delcina B said:

Welcome Rania! I am happy you found this forum & also that you have found a place you can freely explore your feminine self!

 

Hugs!

Delcina

 

Thank you so much for this kind opportunity :) bless you

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7 hours ago, Stefi said:

 

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Welcome @Ranie. You are among friends here. 

 

Rania,  Sorry about the misspelling of your name. 

 

 

Stefi

 

Pleased to meet you Stefi , 

 

No worries I misspell it also sometimes ?

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Welcome Rania.  I'm glad you have joined cus here but also sad that you had to leave your home to be yourself.  Unfortunately too many of us have lost homes and family at least temporarily.  Hopefully time will heal those wounds and perhaps even give others the gift of accepting us.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Hi Rania,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

I wish you all the best on your journey.

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

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15 hours ago, Susan R said:

Congratulations @Rania. This is great news and the beginning of the end to that old battle within. I’m wish you success on your upcoming journey. Knowing your on the right path is half the battle. We’re here for you and support you in your journey. Feel free to reach out with questions and provide us updates as to your progress if you like. 

 

Best of luck,

Susan R?

 

Honestly , It was tough decision. I fought against it for years even I took T hormone , hoping that it would end my misery !! yet I do not regret taking it, and sure once I start my journey I will share my updates . at the moment I trying to find a therapist in Germany inorder to being the process !! 

 

Bless you my dear 

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2 hours ago, Timber Wolf said:

Hi Rania,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

I wish you all the best on your journey.

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

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Bless you Timber 

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1 hour ago, Jandi said:

Welcome Rania

 

Thank you Jandi , I am truly pleased to be a part of this amazing family ?

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14 hours ago, Confused1 said:

Welcome to TransPulse Rania. We will support you any way we can.

 

Hugs,

Mike

 

Thank you Mike , Bless you ??

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