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Feeling over emotional after several months.


Elizabeth Star

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I noticed over the last few weeks I've been getting really emotional and eating a lot the day before and day of when I do my injection. The cis-girls at work think it's cute since they feel that way every month but it's happening to me every week. It's been 4 months since I switch to injectable EV and added Progesterone. I had been on tabs for a year before with only an occasion emotional issue. But here I was last night, taking a shower when thoughts of someone I loved, who passed away 15 years ago, entered my mind and I couldn't stop the tears. I guess I'm looking for advice. I don't know if it's normal. I heard you can get emotional but usually during the first few months. I'm not sure if it's normal and should ride it out or I need to talk to my Endo.

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You can talk to them Liz. It wll not hurt. But welcome to the real world of estrogen. I think i can be right and speaking on behalf of most of us who take a regular dose of estrogen. It happens. Even after all the time I have been on it I can still cry at the drop of a hat and trust me. I was never like that beforehand. Granted I had low T to start but also not much E either so i was in emotional limbo i suppose. But its all change now.

 

Its actually quite a good side effect in my book. I can feel down, Have a good cry and then be better for it.

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Depends. Do you enjoy the heightened emotional state? If yes, than all is good ?

If it concerns you then definitely ask. Since you are using EV, and if your injection cycle is longer than 5 days, then you probably experience high/low scenario. Talk to your doctor about either changing frequency, or maybe switch to EC which is more stable.

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I actually do like it. Nothing like a good cry. I  just didn’t know if I should be worried that it’s happening now and not a few months or a year and a half ago. If it becomes overwhelming I’ll talk to my Endo. What’s EC?  

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Worth at least mentioning to Endo - with the eating - that's not good overall - maybe need slight adjustment doseage - nothing wrong with the tears - I never cried in the past and I am thankful HRT are bringing them now and it feels so human - finally.

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Honestly, it took me over a year, probably close to 14-16 months before emotions would flow easier, so congrats on early achievement ?

@ElizabethStar Conventional shortening for estradiol valerate is EV, so I interpreted it is what you are taking. EC is estradiol cypionate, it is more specific form and does not have generic compounding, so it has to be ordered which makes it more expensive. But imho it's worth the difference for stable delivery and the fact that it can be set on 7 day schedule makes it very attractive.

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My hormones were shut down by a Lupron injection last March due to prostate cancer. GCS will soon make that permanent. In about December I plan to get estrogen. Sometime last April the tears started flowing at the drop of a hat. Although not quite as emotional after 11 months, it doesn't take much to make the tears flow. I think you are quite normal Liz!

 

Hugs,

Mike

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So maybe it does make sense then. When I was on tabs we couldn’t get my E levels over 200. Since switching to shots in November it’s been right about 400. I guess I finally hit a tipping point. 

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I did my shot this morning and feel more stable today. Of course I feel like and probably have eaten 10 pounds of food today. Still hungry. 

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My emotions are all over the place, but In reality I just pretty munch started. So I knew they would be all over the palce. I joked with a friend a few weeks ago. That there are days where I feel like a parent, and a teenager all in one. 

 

As for the crying. I find it easier to cry if I'm happy or sad. It might not be full on crying yet, but maybe some day. I was only about a month in when I told a friend about my transition. I knew I would get the reaction I got from her, and I cried happy tears for the first time. 

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I always feel emotional, that never goes away for me. If I'm not on the verge of tears, I'm to the point of almost being mad over the smallest thing. As far as emotional eating Elizabeth, for me it's feeling like not wanting to eat. And the times I do manage to get hungry I find its easy for me to ignore being hungry. I love being more in touch with my emotions, I just hate either being mad or sad, why can't I just be normal by now.

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I'm on the pills, I get a little teary eyed sometimes and heightened emotions now and then but it isn't much. If you are binge eating that could be concerning. When you are talking about your levels, are you talking pg/ml or pmol? I'm just asking because for pg/ml you don't need over 200 and 400 is really high, which could explain the problems you are having.

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 pg/ml. If 400 is high than I'm right on the edge. My endo hasn't volunteered any information on what levels we're trying to get to and maintain. Only that I'm in the target range.

 

I noticed that although I was emotional this week I haven't been as hungry. Maybe I'm just experiencing a second, second puberty.

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@ElizabethStar Maybe you're pregnant. lol. Maybe that's why your hungry. lol. I wish I was. :(

 

I would give anything to be pregnant, I want to be a mother so bad. :(

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8 hours ago, HollyNoel said:

@ElizabethStar Maybe you're pregnant. lol. Maybe that's why your hungry. lol. I wish I was. :(

 

I would give anything to be pregnant, I want to be a mother so bad. :(

I've been accused of it. I'm going to assume they were joking when they said it. 

#UnobtainableLifeGoals

 

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I'm just jealous of being able to cry! I've had many traumatic events throughout my life and I feel a good cry would do me some good. Its been years since I've managed to show some emotion. I'm just numb, and mostly angry and numb. I have little to no T (Officially, less T than a newborn baby girl), but are unlikely to get any E for another 12 months at this rate. The loss of T has affected me though, mentally and physically and my counsellor had been doing an interesting experiment on me, where she had been mapping my moods and diet over a 24 month period, and yes. It looks like I get some sort of monthly cycle. bring on the emotions... And the chocolate haha.

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I started a thread on chocolate if you want to add to it.

 

A good cry is well....good but can be a little difficult to control. Having decade of repressed emotions surface all at once can be a bit overwhelming.

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I've often described my feelings as being trapped behind a dam that was starting to crumble. I got a hold on it, but even my counsellor suggested we leave that stuff alone for the time being. 

 

What would you lovely people suggest is the most positive result from the appropriate hormones?  Physical or the Mental changes?

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I describe mine pretty similar. A glass room under water. Once it starts to crack....

 

I'm gonna say both. They feed off of and reinforce each other.

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1 hour ago, LusciousTheLock said:

I've often described my feelings as being trapped behind a dam that was starting to crumble. I got a hold on it, but even my counsellor suggested we leave that stuff alone for the time being. 

 

What would you lovely people suggest is the most positive result from the appropriate hormones?  Physical or the Mental changes?

 

For me it is absolutely the mental changes, but followed very closely by the physical ones.

 

Hugs,

Mike

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Here it is Wednesday, I do my shot weekly on Thursdays. My emotions have stabilized and I am not starving. My sleep has also been a lot better this last week, went two nights without sleep aides and stayed asleep until my alarm went off. It's been many years since I've slept more that a few hours at a time and over a decade that I could get to sleep without meds. I'm taking it all as a good sign of things to come.

 

 

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I want and I need to be on estrogen. Been on the patch for two and a half months now along with spirolatone. Today I had this overwhelming feeling to be female. So I put on some really short shorts of feminine top did my makeup and went and got a pedicure. No I didn't put my wig on but I should have. I know I like women but I'm leaving care no more I rather be one.

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