Introducing Gina M , Pleased to meet You :)

[Gina.Maklo]

Hello , Im Gina 33 from the UK , Liverpool. I found your website after watching a few Jackie Rabbit videos on youtube and have been lurking on it since last Halloween 2020 when I came out to my Mother and Sister as maybe trans, gender questioning and definately not cis male. 

 

I have known what was a "transexual" since I was about 7 years old because of the film Crying Game . Finally watched it when I was 25 years old to scratch an itch ( yes it is quite transphobic film ). Then the Danish Girl , that made me cry and my heart fill . I supressed these feelings with Alcohol, drugs and heavy work load.

 

It was the lockdown where there bars were closed and I had become sober finally that I had to accept myself to live on to continue the next chapter of life.

 

My sister was accepting , being a millennial just a few years older than me. When I opened up to my mother it was uncomfortable but had to be done. I broke her mentally for about two weeks and I was sorry for causing her distress. I told her I would always be her son , just not the version she had in mind.

We agreed not to talk about it anymore and that I would apply for the Gender Clinic through the NHS when I move out of home. 

 

Its been over six months and I have had to live with my father in the city and Im terrified of ever coming out to him become he is an old school and respected working class hard man of the asian community here. Have to be safe for now.

 

Now the gyms are open I have an excuse to go out and present androgynous for now. I even had euphoria from my own shadows when I ran, as Gina. 

 

Wish me luck for finding my own space and ill see you on the forums. 

 

Love, G x

 

[VickySGV]

Welcome to the Forums Gina, you are in a good place to be yourself which we know is not always easy to do.  Look around, ask questions or answer someone else I will have been on the site for 10 years in a day or two and have seen many people at your place in life get going on some truly wonderful life.

[Elizabeth Star]

Hi Gina! Nice to meet you. This is a great forum full of friendly and helpful people.

[Astrid]

3 hours ago, Gina.Maklo said:

Wish me luck for finding my own space and ill see you on the forums. 

 

I do indeed wish you well finding your space and taking more steps your journey.  If you have questions or remarks, we're here to support each other.  

 

Astrid

[MelanieTamara]

Hi GIna, Welcome. I'm from the new england area and the owners of Livrpool FC are the same owners of the Boston Red Sox. I hope they do a better job with them than they do with the Sox.

 

Anyways, if the long process of transition gets you down, we can always talk about a midfielder or two.

 

MT. 

 

 

[Heather Shay]

@Gina.Maklo I am so glad you came and yes Jackie Rabbit is a wonderful goodwill ambassador and it would nice for you to make a post thanking her. She see it and smile.

 

I can relate to your experiences (loved The Crying Game) and I visited Liverpool (big Beatles fan and play left handed bass in tribute band). I really enjoyed every minute I was in your city 

 

I am sorry your mom isn't as accepting as you'd like but as in the case of my wife give her lots of time and space. It feels like she will accept as she goes through her own grieving period. As for your dad sounds like know is not the time but as you work with gender clinic and therapist and grow more confident in yourself you will face that bridge when it comes.

 

Hugs and ask as many questions as you like. We're all here for you as you can already see.

 

Heather Shay

[Jackie C.]

12 hours ago, Gina.Maklo said:

Wish me luck for finding my own space and ill see you on the forums. 

 

Luck!

 

Hugs!

[Delcina B]

Welcome Gina! I relate to a lot of your experiences. I've found the forum a wonderful place where I am accepted as I am. I think you will too.

 

Hugs!

Delcina

[Beatriz]

Nice to meet you, @Gina.Maklo. Good luck and hugs!

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Gina,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

[Gina.Maklo]

Hi all , I am really grateful for your kind words. I had been reluctant to check for replys to my introduction as I had major anxieties or some shyness to face the unknown. Thanks again .

 

Love G x

[Heather Shay]

@Gina.Maklo  a lot of us can totally relate. As you are finding, you are not lone and we want the very best for you as you continue on your personal journey.

[Vidanjali]

Hi @Gina.Maklo I hope you are staying safe & sober. The gym sounds like a great outlet for you. I like the image of Gina running free. God bless.