Where I'd Like to Be

[Sometimes Chrissie]

I've always had an androgynous look, especially my face. My shoulders are wide and my hips are narrow although that has changed some with diet and exercise. I'm doing all sorts of squats and lunges that target my butt and hips. 

 

My beard is light but I am looking it laser hair removal. I've always hated shaving and when I tried to grow a beard in my late 20's it looked really bad and it was itchy. 

 

My hips are a bit over 36" and my waist is around 29" maybe less. 28" slacks are a little snug. I'm going to by this corset looking thing to whittle my waist down a few more inches and maybe push some fat down to my hips.

 

In a few weeks I'll be ordering some hops and some white peony root. 

 

My goal is to be somewhat more feminine than masculine in appearance. My face is probably 50/50. Legs are like most women's in appearance and naturally hairless. 

 

My weight is around 140 lbs and dropping. The lowest I can go and still have a healthy BMI is 123lbs. That was my high school wrestling weight. My shoulders are too broad.  ?  My glove size is men's medium. 

 

My hips can get a bit wider but my shoulders won't get much narrower.  

 

My genitals can be shrunk and have shrunk on their own over the years. Perhaps they will get small enough to easily tuck on occasion. 

 

I don't want breasts but if really small ones happen I could live with that. 

 

Question: Are there doctors who have expertise in helping bi-gender androgynous types like me get to where we need or want to be physically?

 

I'm thinking that prescription T-blockers or prescription prostate meds may be all it will take to get me to where I want to be. Smoke and mirror along with some guile will do the rest.

 

[Heather Shay]

I suggest a LGBTQ+ healthcare syste Equitas in Ohio - they specialize in all things LGBTQ+ and can guide you. You might try googling bi-gender health in your state and you should be able to find providers.

[Sometimes Chrissie]

4 hours ago, Shay said:

I suggest a LGBTQ+ healthcare syste Equitas in Ohio - they specialize in all things LGBTQ+ and can guide you. You might try googling bi-gender health in your state and you should be able to find providers.

Thank you. 

 

I'm confused by some of the nomenclature so such as gender fluid, bi gender and trans feminine.  I'm not sure where I fit in and I'm not comfortable with labels. 

 

I think I need a hormone and perhaps surgical "tweak". I have concerns about Proscar and Avodart as my oldest brother had gynomastia from Avodart and still needed prostate surgery. I'd rather me flat chested. I'm most attracted to lean slender small breasted women.

 

Mentally, I'd like to have more serenity and a calmer spirit. Growing up I was a fighter and getting in fights was almost a hobby of mine.

 

Professional advice would be best. 

[Heather Shay]

Another suggestion - purchase You and Your Gender Identity by Dara Huffman-Fox. You can get it for about $15 on Amazon. Dara is non-binary and picks no sides - just provides you with a wonderful workbook to allow you and your experiences and life to determine who you are if you are having issues and need guidance. 

[April-Showers]

2 hours ago, Sometimes Chrissie said:

I'm confused by some of the nomenclature so such as gender fluid, bi gender and trans feminine.

yeah, me too. young people like myself are supposed to be 'up' on current nomenclature but even at age 22 i seem to be what some call 'old school'. lol seems every day there are new and 'whaaaat' descriptions of what someone feels they 'are'. i do use the term transgender on this forum but not anyplace else. and i call myself 'female'.....because that's what i am. or maybe because i just don't have time to try to figure out what else i might be! lol thank you.

[Jackie C.]

1 hour ago, April-Showers said:

i do use the term transgender on this forum but not anyplace else. and i call myself 'female'.....because that's what i am.

 

Which is the answer. Who is ANYBODY else to tell you your identity? See how that works?

 

Hugs!

[Heather Shay]

Agree - only you can know - you might need prompts to help you be honest with yourself - but still it is you and only you who can know.

[April-Showers]

1 hour ago, Jackie C. said:

Which is the answer. Who is ANYBODY else to tell you your identity? See how that works?

 

 

1 hour ago, Shay said:

Agree - only you can know - you might need prompts to help you be honest with yourself - but still it is you and only you who can know.

yup!

[Sometimes Chrissie]

10 hours ago, Shay said:

Another suggestion - purchase You and Your Gender Identity by Dara Huffman-Fox. You can get it for about $15 on Amazon. Dara is non-binary and picks no sides - just provides you with a wonderful workbook to allow you and your experiences and life to determine who you are if you are having issues and need guidance. 

 

What do you think of the BEM test?

[Sometimes Chrissie]

9 hours ago, April-Showers said:

yeah, me too. young people like myself are supposed to be 'up' on current nomenclature but even at age 22 i seem to be what some call 'old school'. lol seems every day there are new and 'whaaaat' descriptions of what someone feels they 'are'. i do use the term transgender on this forum but not anyplace else. and i call myself 'female'.....because that's what i am. or maybe because i just don't have time to try to figure out what else i might be! lol thank you.

 

I get your point. You were born a female but you body doesn't match.  There are females born with vaginas and ovaries whose bodies are not all that feminine and many do things to enhance their feminine features such as butt procedures, breast enlargement, facial surgery etc...

 

Happiness is important and if you think about it, we come into this world uninvited to often suffer biting miseries of both mind and body. I believe that about 2% of people are born with some sort of gender anomaly either through gene expression or biological circumstances during gestation.  That's a lot of people. I wonder if my testicles not dropping soon enough and the hernias and their repairs played a role in how my brain developed. 

 

Compared to other cultures, part of American culture are so backward and so anti-science and anti-reason. The collective IQ in the is under 100 and in certain areas of the US it much lower than that. Western Europe and East Asia has a higher collective IQ than the US.