Mtf hrt: hello sisters, what mental and/or emotional effects do you or did you experience thus far?

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

I identify as a mtf girl, 25 year old girl who "crossdressers" (wears her appropriate clothing), I finally got my endo to prescribe my meds (estrogen and t-blocker) and I bought them, but I am worried that it may make me "very sad"...

 

So girls, can you tell me, have you had any negative mental and/or emotional effects with your hormones?  Early or early to middle really

[Jackie C.]

Nah, it just made my emotions more intense. It's not like the pills are magic either, the effects sneak up on you over the first couple of months.

 

It's been nothing but positive for me honestly. The mental static is gone so I can finally think clearly. The dysphoria has quieted down enough that I can work on my other problems. Ten out of ten. Would reccomend.

 

Hugs!

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

1 hour ago, Jackie C. said:

Nah, it just made my emotions more intense. It's not like the pills are magic either, the effects sneak up on you over the first couple of months.

 

It's been nothing but positive for me honestly. The mental static is gone so I can finally think clearly. The dysphoria has quieted down enough that I can work on my other problems. Ten out of ten. Would reccomend.

 

Hugs!

Okay, so my preoccupation with transitioning will subside as my proper form takes shape?  All the stress and anxiety...what about the t-blocker?  Any negatives?  Read and watch a lot of girls really think it over on that alone

[Jackie C.]

Depends on the blocker. I had to pee a lot. I've been on Spiro and Finasteride. Neither one really had adverse mental effects. I could even maintain erections right up to the day I had my GCS. For me? No downsides. I feel freaking fantastic.

 

Hugs!

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

1 hour ago, Jackie C. said:

Depends on the blocker. I had to pee a lot. I've been on Spiro and Finasteride. Neither one really had adverse mental effects. I could even maintain erections right up to the day I had my GCS. For me? No downsides. I feel freaking fantastic.

 

Hugs!

Do you get more anxious and stressed easily?

 

 

[Jackie C.]

I suffer from BPD, how would I even tell? ?

 

Honestly though, I'm more relaxed and centered than I used to be. I can concentrate more easily and I flow through my day more than I break on the rocks. It's hard to explain the calm but there's a definite serenity that settles around you as your brain gets used to the chemical balance it was expecting in the first place.

 

If anything, I'm less stressed. Anxiety... that's harder to judge but I'm less anxious than I used to be. I mean I was sharing pictures with strangers in the polling office today (It's voting day here). No stress, just sharing a cute outfit with strangers.

 

I'm not saying I don't still have bad days, I absolutely do but I have less and less of them as I settle into the woman I was meant to be.

 

Hugs!

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

1 hour ago, Jackie C. said:

I suffer from BPD, how would I even tell? ?

 

Honestly though, I'm more relaxed and centered than I used to be. I can concentrate more easily and I flow through my day more than I break on the rocks. It's hard to explain the calm but there's a definite serenity that settles around you as your brain gets used to the chemical balance it was expecting in the first place.

 

If anything, I'm less stressed. Anxiety... that's harder to judge but I'm less anxious than I used to be. I mean I was sharing pictures with strangers in the polling office today (It's voting day here). No stress, just sharing a cute outfit with strangers.

 

I'm not saying I don't still have bad days, I absolutely do but I have less and less of them as I settle into the woman I was meant to be.

 

Hugs!

You go babe!  You know, I ask, cause...I am a young biological male, but really a girl (a sis with an equally unique experience) and I know it, but I am still trying to work out the mental and/or emotional changes, like anxiety and stress, also depression and related neurosis or psychosis, if that's a possibility, just from fellow sisters who've completed their transitions or mostly completed their transitions

[Jackie C.]

It's my understanding that the time you spend with a gender therapist is supposed to weed out most of the candidates that would have an adverse effect to the E. Like I said though, I LOVE the stuff.

 

I'm curious how many of those effects are drug related and how many of them are just transition related though. Transition by itself is stressful. I'm about three years in and really hitting my stride, but I was a lot more anxious in the beginning. My anxiety was more rooted in my brain saying, "What if..?" and spinning a horror story than it was anything else.

 

I'm lucky, but a lot of girls get backlash and abuse from their communities. On top of that this is absolutely not something you want to undertake without support. You need people, good people, on your side. At least until you find your footing and can start sprinting on your own.

That's part of what we're for here. We support each other when friends and family don't.

 

Hugs!

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

1 hour ago, Jackie C. said:

It's my understanding that the time you spend with a gender therapist is supposed to weed out most of the candidates that would have an adverse effect to the E. Like I said though, I LOVE the stuff.

 

I'm curious how many of those effects are drug related and how many of them are just transition related though. Transition by itself is stressful. I'm about three years in and really hitting my stride, but I was a lot more anxious in the beginning. My anxiety was more rooted in my brain saying, "What if..?" and spinning a horror story than it was anything else.

 

I'm lucky, but a lot of girls get backlash and abuse from their communities. On top of that this is absolutely not something you want to undertake without support. You need people, good people, on your side. At least until you find your footing and can start sprinting on your own.

That's part of what we're for here. We support each other when friends and family don't.

 

Hugs!

I am desperate to transition, be me and free of my shell, as is today...not me, obviously, otherwise wouldn't be hear talking to yourself and co.  I just don't know if estrogen is going to make me more sadder then I am even aware of, or comfortable with being at.

 

I was going to get to the environmental-related attitudes and approaches...pride and prejudice, yeah, my family has rejected my transitioning or me transitioning, came-out in 2017 and about mid-2018 or mid to late 2018 to my mother, I had to roll it back, that was with my mother...glad I have the nice trans girls here to guide me along or advise me

[Jackie C.]

Yeah, that happens sometimes. I got straight-up disowned by my parents, but I was older and not quite so dependent on their largesse. Not that they paid for much once I graduated High School but they did manage to help me out here and there. Room and board would have been problematic if I'd come out when I started to figure out who I really was.

 

So like I said, for me it took the edge off. I'm pretty patient with transitioning (it's not a quick process) so as long as I'm making headway (taking E is headway) I'm pretty content. The girl looking back at me from the mirror seems pretty happy anyway.

 

Hugs!

[MirandaB]

I would describe the effects on my mental/emotional state as a huge positive. So a weird thing happens from time to time, I realize how good I'm feeling and it makes me sad that I waited so long to feel this way. 

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

8 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

Yeah, that happens sometimes. I got straight-up disowned by my parents, but I was older and not quite so dependent on their largesse. Not that they paid for much once I graduated High School but they did manage to help me out here and there. Room and board would have been problematic if I'd come out when I started to figure out who I really was.

 

So like I said, for me it took the edge off. I'm pretty patient with transitioning (it's not a quick process) so as long as I'm making headway (taking E is headway) I'm pretty content. The girl looking back at me from the mirror seems pretty happy anyway.

 

Hugs!

I'm currently unemployed and live (survive) on welfare, so I'm living in rental shared accommodation here in sydney, nsw australia, which is why I'm able to transition in relative peace at such a young age.

 

My dream job is in hair and makeup as and after I finish transitioning, I ain't content with waiting, too anxious about not seeing my freedom through

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

2 hours ago, RhondaS said:

I would describe the effects on my mental/emotional state as a huge positive. So a weird thing happens from time to time, I realize how good I'm feeling and it makes me sad that I waited so long to feel this way. 

Thats great babe, I am hopeful I have the same outcome too

[Guest]

I had some issues with spironolactone; namely leg pain while exercising, cramps at night, and feeling light headed due to lower blood pressure. I’ve adjusted and adapted to it and am very happy with my results after 8 months. The mental changes seemed to happen quickly but the physical ones are slower,

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

1 hour ago, Erica Gabriel said:

I had some issues with spironolactone; namely leg pain while exercising, cramps at night, and feeling light headed due to lower blood pressure. I’ve adjusted and adapted to it and am very happy with my results after 8 months. The mental changes seemed to happen quickly but the physical ones are slower,

Thank you sis for letting me know, I needed this, not to avoid my meds, but...avoid any unnecessary side effects and potential complications, be it mental, emotional or physical

[Aggie1]

12 hours ago, Mtf girl Dogemilataka said:

I identify as a mtf girl, 25 year old girl who "crossdressers" (wears her appropriate clothing), I finally got my endo to prescribe my meds (estrogen and t-blocker) and I bought them, but I am worried that it may make me "very sad"...

 

So girls, can you tell me, have you had any negative mental and/or emotional effects with your hormones?  Early or early to middle really

I think I would be very sad if they refused to continue prescribing them. The day my doc asked me if I’d like to start right away or think about it a while, I said “deep breath! This is something I’ve dreamed about my whole life. Let’s do it now!” I could feel the difference after a week and I liked the feeling. I haven’t had a moment of regret. I’m not sure what I would do if it suddenly became illegal. Probably sell my house and move somewhere it was legal I suppose. 
 

im seeing small incremental changes every week and really can’t wait to meet myself a year from now.

 

Sad? Nope. But I have had a long time for it to marinate in my subconscious before it finally came to a head this year. If I’d had any doubts I think I would have spent more time with a therapist first, exploring the reasons behind any misgivings, just to make sure. 
 

im told that the effects are reversible up to a certain period so if you stop the prescription the body will continue with its previous levels of hormone production. I’m not an expert on that so it would be worth checking out with competent medical advice!

[Jackie C.]

11 hours ago, Mtf girl Dogemilataka said:

I'm currently unemployed and live (survive) on welfare, so I'm living in rental shared accommodation here in sydney, nsw australia, which is why I'm able to transition in relative peace at such a young age

 

Well, when I started to figure out what I'd need to feel comfortable in my own skin, I was in high school. When I first should have realized something was off, I was eight but it was the 70s and nobody talked about it. Neither one of those ages is conductive to living without parental support.

 

I SHOULD have put on my big-girl panties and pursued it when I was financially independent(ish) at 20, BUT where I live you can be terminated, refused medical treatment and thrown out of your rented lodgings for being trans so that might not have worked out as well as I'd have hoped.

 

Hugs!

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

On 11/3/2021 at 10:52 PM, Jackie C. said:

 

Well, when I started to figure out what I'd need to feel comfortable in my own skin, I was in high school. When I first should have realized something was off, I was eight but it was the 70s and nobody talked about it. Neither one of those ages is conductive to living without parental support.

 

I SHOULD have put on my big-girl panties and pursued it when I was financially independent(ish) at 20, BUT where I live you can be terminated, refused medical treatment and thrown out of your rented lodgings for being trans so that might not have worked out as well as I'd have hoped.

 

Hugs!

I get it sis...I get it

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

You know Jackie C., to many of us young adult transsexual girls you are indirectly inspirational.

 

I might not know you personally, but even a more older woman whose lived our experience, who tells her story publicly (and/or professionally), is showing younger future trans girls, younger then me, that as young women...born boys, their lives are not shackled to masculinity and their unneeded appendage, but cause of older women who too were born boys and blossomed into and grew into women and wives and hopefully mommies, you can join our trans-sisterhood as younger sisters and be the women you are, keep or live behind that "thing" we have "down there" and be wives and mommies too.

 

Its sad, that we can't enjoy our womanhood to the fullest, but we "mainstream" and pioneer the topic of transgenderism and transsexuality.

 

PROUD women, PROUD wives and PROUD mothers (one day, hopefully soon).

 

Thank you Jackie, sister

[Jackie C.]

6 hours ago, Mtf girl Dogemilataka said:

Its sad, that we can't enjoy our womanhood to the fullest, but we "mainstream" and pioneer the topic of transgenderism and transsexuality.

 

Except I'm not sad. Better late than never, right? I've got a great group of friends to go and do girl stuff with. I've gotten myself healthy physically and now I'm working on straightening up the attic with the help of my emotional support human. I also volunteer here to help my trans friends with their struggles and give them support. There's a little sigh of what might have been, but twenty years ago I never would have guessed that my life would be what it is now.

 

I'm generally happy, comfortable in my own skin and loving every minute.

 

Hugs! 

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

5 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

 

Except I'm not sad. Better late than never, right? I've got a great group of friends to go and do girl stuff with. I've gotten myself healthy physically and now I'm working on straightening up the attic with the help of my emotional support human. I also volunteer here to help my trans friends with their struggles and give them support. There's a little sigh of what might have been, but twenty years ago I never would have guessed that my life would be what it is now.

 

I'm generally happy, comfortable in my own skin and loving every minute.

 

Hugs! 

Sorry babe, I was wrong

 

That's great sis, everything you said is a step in the right direction, life for you is on the up and up.

[Mtf girl Dogemilataka]

On 11/3/2021 at 1:27 PM, AgnesBardsie said:

I think I would be very sad if they refused to continue prescribing them. The day my doc asked me if I’d like to start right away or think about it a while, I said “deep breath! This is something I’ve dreamed about my whole life. Let’s do it now!” I could feel the difference after a week and I liked the feeling. I haven’t had a moment of regret. I’m not sure what I would do if it suddenly became illegal. Probably sell my house and move somewhere it was legal I suppose. 
 

im seeing small incremental changes every week and really can’t wait to meet myself a year from now.

 

Sad? Nope. But I have had a long time for it to marinate in my subconscious before it finally came to a head this year. If I’d had any doubts I think I would have spent more time with a therapist first, exploring the reasons behind any misgivings, just to make sure. 
 

im told that the effects are reversible up to a certain period so if you stop the prescription the body will continue with its previous levels of hormone production. I’m not an expert on that so it would be worth checking out with competent medical advice!

Thats great sis

 

I wouldn't want to stop either, not for the physical effects.