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The first step is taken as reality sets in.

Maria Viklund

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The scope of what i have started is slowly setting in after have been to the first meeting with my psychiatric counselor.

It is the very first step of my transition and it has now been taken. She was a wonderful lady, we had a loooong talk and

it feels so good to just be able to spill everything to someone and have them say "Well clearly you have thought this through..".

But as amazing it feels having taken this first step, the reality is also that i'm really scared. It's on now. It's real. It's actually happening.

No more what if's and maybes, it's actually happening and it scares the living bejeasus out of me.

I don't have a doubt in my mind that this is the right couse of action thou, and that this IS the route i need to take.

I just have to keep reminding myself that a journy consists of many small steps and that i will take one after the other

and deal with each one as they become relevant.

 

What a crazy ride this will be. :)

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3 hours ago, Hannah Renee said:

Be honest with yourself and your therapist, be patient with your journey, be true to yourself. Enjoy the wild ride.

Hannah

Oh i will enjoy every minute of it and cross each stream when i get to them. :)

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On 3/21/2022 at 10:35 AM, Maria Viklund said:

But as amazing it feels having taken this first step, the reality is also that i'm really scared. It's on now. It's real. It's actually happening.

No more what if's and maybes, it's actually happening and it scares the living bejeasus out of me.

I don't have a doubt in my mind that this is the right couse of action thou, and that this IS the route i need to take.

I just have to keep reminding myself that a journy consists of many small steps and that i will take one after the other

and deal with each one as they become relevant.

 

What a crazy ride this will be. :)

If this doesn't perfectly describe how I feel all day and night long this last week 😳.....   I couldn't have said it any better. Terrified is an understatement, yet I haven't even considered changing my decision. I soooo need to find a suitable therapist ASAP, I'd be delusional to believe I can do this by myself. Thank you for this pogh

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