Changes I see in myself pre hormones

[Michelle_Anne]

Good morning,

 

Over the last year and a half to two years I’ve struggled with gender dysphoria.  Finally after fighting feelings on my own I had the courage to see a therapist last week.  I spent a month looking.   Before seeing the therapist the biggest question I had was are all the feelings I have just a fetish?  Why do they keep coming back?  Well last night for the first time I started shopping for female items to start wearing.  I looked at clothes, bras, press on nails,  underwear and wigs. 
 

Something major that I noticed was I don’t think I’ve ever felt so much like a female ever. And guess what…..the sexual arousals I used to have were gone.   Feeling that change is another step that affirms and validates what I’m feeling is real and not a fetish. 
When I went to bed I thought wow!!! If I feel like this now I can only imagine how being on hormones will magnify that. 

[Susan R]

17 hours ago, Limitededition said:

Well last night for the first time I started shopping for female items to start wearing.  I looked at clothes, bras, press on nails,  underwear and wigs. 
 

Something major that I noticed was I don’t think I’ve ever felt so much like a female ever. And guess what…..the sexual arousals I used to have were gone.   Feeling that change is another step that affirms and validates what I’m feeling is real and not a fetish

The fetish issue was one of the biggest hurdles for me in my earlier years. The idea that my crossdressing was a fetish never sat well. As I now understand it for me, crossdressing was simply a need that arose from (or a symptom caused by) the difficulties living in a male body, presenting myself as male, forced to take on a male role, and carry on socially as a male. This was all happening on the outside when in fact, inside I felt completely female. It became a way to control the pain of incongruity and severe internalization of my true self. It became a way to express secretly, in some way, my internal feminine being.

 

Now that I have accepted myself as female and transitioned medically and surgically to female, I have reversed many of the childhood issues I had developed living as a male. Best of all, there’s no longer any sexual component attached to wearing women’s clothing. And truthfully, it’s hardly a surprise to me😁.

 

Susan R🌷

[Charlize]

One of the joys of living as a woman over time is that the fetish issue has disappeared.  As others mentioned it bothered me.  It made come feel dirty and somehow wrong.  To forgive myself a bit, not long ago,  society believed any cross gender motion was a fetish.  Today i'm simply happy and peaceful living as myself.  I'm blessed that times are changing and places like this exist where i can share with others.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[Betty K]

It’s now broadly known that women often find sexual excitement in the clothes they wear too, but in their case no-one claims it’s a fetish. I’d guess that young women in puberty feel this excitement particularly acutely, the same way many of us do when the experience is new to us and we are only just discovering our feminine sexuality. But unfortunately many of us have lived in a state of arrested development owing to the sense of guilt and shame we have inherited from society. I am so totally over the idea that a trans woman’s sexuality is somehow pathological. It’s amazing how often the idea still crops up in various forms. I’m very happy for you @Limitededition and I think I may be at a similar place in my journey, just discovering how right it feels to be who I’ve always longed to be. Best of luck to you.

[Betty K]

Sorry, I should have said “cisgender women” in the comment above, not just “women”. 

[Ivy]

On 6/14/2022 at 11:17 AM, BrewessJ said:

Turns out, I wasn't a cross dresser at all.

Yeah.  I was kinda late to the game, but I doubt that my "crossdresser" phase lasted a whole week.

[Michelle_Anne]

4 hours ago, Charlize said:

One of the joys of living as a woman over time is that the fetish issue has disappeared.  As others mentioned it bothered me.  It made come feel dirty and somehow wrong.  To forgive myself a bit, not long ago,  society believed any cross gender motion was a fetish.  Today i'm simply happy and peaceful living as myself.  I'm blessed that times are changing and places like this exist where i can share with others.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

I agree also about feeling somewhat dirty.  Once I realized what was going on inside of me it was kinda like ewwwww and I just stopped with it all together.

 

Michelle

[Michelle_Anne]

Changed my display name on here today.  It’s interesting how I just like staring at it.  

[Nicole M]

29 minutes ago, Michelle_Anne said:

Changed my display name on here today.  It’s interesting how I just like staring at it.  

Hi Michelle. What was your display name here before? Mine was Sandy Morgan, but I asked for it to be updated, as I had selected that name in haste when I was signing up months ago.