I Lost A Friend

[Sally]

I Lost A Friend

By Sally Michelle Jackson

I lost a friend and the emptiness is filled with pain that is beyond compare

This was a friend that was full of love and compassion and eager to care

Yet in the end when she needed me I wasn’t there

She was taken by hateful people it was just so unfair

I fell asleep and slept for hours in my chair

And yet when she needed me I wasn’t there

I awoke early only to hear the news

I suddenly felt dazed and confused

I have wondered through my day constantly crying

As if with each tear shed a bit of my soul was dying

While I sat with my snack and my Television on

How could I know that she was already gone

She was always there when ever someone needed care

How is it possible that when she needed me I wasn’t there

This young one with so much reason to life

And a caring heart with so much more to give

And now she is gone and only her memory remains

I will do what I can to help all others with their pains

She was a child of our community and a young leader as well

When her name was mentioned a story of her kindness to tell

Such a kind and loving soul should not spend her last hours in torment and fear

I feel as though all sanity has been taken from us and left only emptiness here

I look at this world of great beauty and yet such hate

Ignorance fuels fear turned to violence, hatred’s mate

She was so young and her life as a woman was just at the beginning

How could anything she had done have lead to such a horrible ending

I have spent the day crying and barely have slept

My hair is not brushed and my house is not kept

I never had occasion to directly speak

I never will because I was too meek

The strange thing about the Internet

I mourn for a friend that I never met

I felt so old and too slow and so very out of place

So I never spoke to her and never saw her face

When she was alive and a vibrant being

I never acted or made an effort for seeing

There is always tomorrow that’s what I like to say

But I learned in an instant there might be just today

No chance now to ever meet this wonderful child

As I slept in fits and turns I heard a voice so mild

I spoke to her yesterday and again last night

She told me to not punish myself it is alright

We try to help every one that needs us but try as we might

We cannot help everyone and she told me that it is alright

I fell asleep and slept for hours in my chair

And yet when she needed me I wasn’t there

She looked down on me like a distant star

I heard an angelic voice drifting from afar

You are helping others the best way that you can

No one can ask more from any woman or man

Her words gave me comfort but that was her way

I heard that from others that was what they all say

Those people that knew her, chatted and talked to her each day

Why do I feel such a terrible loss is it just a reaction or total dismay

I cannot find a reason or cause to feel so deeply onset

The need to mourn the loss of a friend that I never met

The reason may just be that it is guilt that I feel

For having spent so much time preparing a meal

I fell asleep and slept for hours in my chair

And yet when she needed me I wasn’t there

I have a new motto or you might call it a creed

If ever you find yourself in trouble or in need

Of someone to listen or just simply to care

Give me a call and this time I will be there

We have lost sisters to violence but they are never forgotten, they has left their marks on so many and so many of us who never even had the chance to meet them.

There are new stars in the heavens watching over us, I call them sisters.

Love, peace and contentment,

Sally

[Guest joe0117]

Sally,

This is a beautiful tribute to all our sisters and brothers. You capture how devastating it is to learn when someone in our community has been taken away from us and the world. For all who have suffered and those who are no longer with us - you are loved and remembered. Shine on!!!

Thank you Sally for sharing this!

Joe