Hi I'm Lucy

[Lucywills]

I don't know where to start but it makes sense to start from the beginning.

I have been cross dressing for as long as I can remember, I can remember my mum catching me wearing a skirt when i was around 6 or 7 but I think she always knew and if things would have worked out differently and if I were brought up by her, maybe I could have transitioned as a teenager and become the girl I always knew I was.

But anyway my parents split up when I was 11 and I ended up staying with my dad, my dad was a big, hard, strong man and I had to portray the same image which I did, playing rugby and boxing I was your typical young guy with a big secret.

In high school I dated girls but secretly was attracted to guys as well but just wasn't brave enough to let my true emotions out, it's been the same all my adult life and now at 50 years old the urge is stronger than ever, but I'm worried about how I will be received as i am no longer exactly petite, I know I shouldn't care about what other people mostly strangers think of me but I do and I'm a little scared to be honest.

 

[KathyLauren]

Hi, Lucy.  Welcome!

 

I hope you are able to find a way to be your true self.  This is a great place to ask questions.

 

Regards,

Kathy

[Jani]

Hello @Lucywills.  

52 minutes ago, Lucywills said:

I know I shouldn't care about what other people mostly strangers think of me but I do and I'm a little scared to be honest.

This is common.  We do tend to care about our public image, but remember its what you think that is important.  But be careful not to put yourself into dangerous situations.  The places you went as male have a different vibe when going there as a female.  Stay safe.

 

Jani

[Delcina B]

Welcome Lucy @Lucywills! Glad you're here! I stumbled into the forum not too long ago, also in my fifties. Finally able to be willing to see what how I felt was all about. It was wonderful to find others like me, though they weren't sick & demented as I thought myself to be for crossdressing & having feminine feelings. They helped me get to know me; they shared their lives, journeys & feelings in their posts, suggested I see a gender therapist & to check out a few books: You & Your Gender Identity by Dara Hoffman Fox & one by Kate Bornstein. I followed the suggestions, found out I have this thing called gender dysphoria. It's treatable. I started this journey exploring my femme & treating the dysphoria taking a step & seeing how I felt. I still have some dysphoria, but no where near what it was just over two years ago & I still venture on, having a path to follow to lessen it with each step. I offer these same suggestions to you. I hope you find the wonderful support, advice & acceptance here as I have.

 

Hugs!

Delcina 

[Lucywills]

21 hours ago, KathyLauren said:

Hi, Lucy.  Welcome!

 

I hope you are able to find a way to be your true self.  This is a great place to ask questions.

 

Regards,

Kathy

Thank you so much

 

[Lucywills]

21 hours ago, Jani said:

Hello @Lucywills.  

This is common.  We do tend to care about our public image, but remember its what you think that is important.  But be careful not to put yourself into dangerous situations.  The places you went as male have a different vibe when going there as a female.  Stay safe.

 

Jani

Thank you so much, i think this is one reason i'm a bit scared i really don't want to be in a dangerous situation.

[Lucywills]

11 hours ago, Delcina B said:

Welcome Lucy @Lucywills! Glad you're here! I stumbled into the forum not too long ago, also in my fifties. Finally able to be willing to see what how I felt was all about. It was wonderful to find others like me, though they weren't sick & demented as I thought myself to be for crossdressing & having feminine feelings. They helped me get to know me; they shared their lives, journeys & feelings in their posts, suggested I see a gender therapist & to check out a few books: You & Your Gender Identity by Dara Hoffman Fox & one by Kate Bornstein. I followed the suggestions, found out I have this thing called gender dysphoria. It's treatable. I started this journey exploring my femme & treating the dysphoria taking a step & seeing how I felt. I still have some dysphoria, but no where near what it was just over two years ago & I still venture on, having a path to follow to lessen it with each step. I offer these same suggestions to you. I hope you find the wonderful support, advice & acceptance here as I have.

 

Hugs!

Delcina 

Thank you so much for reaching out, i will check out them books

[Mmindy]

Welcome Lucy, 

I hope you find this site as helpful as I do. 
 

Mindy🐛🦋🏳️‍⚧️

[Ivy]

Welcome Lucy

[Lucywills]

On 2/13/2023 at 11:53 PM, Mmindy said:

Welcome Lucy, 

I hope you find this site as helpful as I do. 
 

Mindy🐛🦋🏳️‍⚧️

Thank you Mindy