Who am I? As missy jo...

[missyjo]

Hello.

I was born n assigned M n lived it my whole life, always wondering what was "off" about me. why did I always see a pretty girl n have the usual thoughts a young boy expects, n then always wondered why I couldn't have that outfit n look as cute as she in it, followed by why can't I look like her, no be her with long pretty hair, perky breasts n a cute butt I could show off under tight shorts or short skirts..why did I get this male body? why can't I have a vagina n breasts instead of this penis?

 

I never hated my male self, but something seemed...wrong...even at age 20 I prepared docs for my death planning on leaving the state n transitioning to F n planning on surgery after death so my family would never know. laughs. pretty realistic, huh?

 

so I've read a lot lately n think I am probably MtF transgendered. I'm sort of ok with that. I've started living as missy full time other than trips to see mom or other family functions. I'm lining up laser treatments  n piercing my ears n getting into therapy. I've told my closest friends n let the chips fall. siblings are divided  1 calls to check on me with suggestions for my transition the other tells me I'm 1. insane n 2 possessed by the devil. what à range, eh?

 

I'm new. I was married to a lovely woman fir many years n in that time, lost contact with few gfs I had in alternative lifestyle communities. 

 

so hello. forgive my many beginners questions. and so many thanks for being here for folks like me who seek support n advice n friends on this journey.

hugs 

missy jo

[April Marie]

Welcome to the forum Missy Jo! You'll find lots of us who had their Ephinay later in life, as well as some like me who are just working our way through what "transition" will mean for us. I look forward to hearing more about your journey as you move ahead.

[missyjo]

April Marie,

Thank you for the kind welcome dear. 

sometimes i feel so hated by society n so loved by other girls n cisgirls too, I wonder why we don't turn over all government to women. laughs.

looking forward to feeling not so out of place here. thank you dear.

hugs

missy

[Mmindy]

Good evening Missy,

 

Welcome to Transgender Pulse Forums. I think you find that your life experience, and story are similar to many of us MtF transgender folks. I had many of the same questions as I grew up entering puberty. Because it was the mid 1960s, and the internet hadn't been invented yet. I was lost and felt like I must be the only one who feels this way. In the 1970s transgender information became more available, and I knew I wasn't alone. By this time though I was expected to be the big brother, and do male chores on the farm. I didn't seek therapy until I was in my late 50s for other things not related to my gender. I now have a gender therapist, and my health care team knows I'm seeking transition.

 

Continue to look around, jump in on any of the treads that catch your eye.

 

Best wishes, stay positive, and motivated,

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

[missyjo]

Mindy 

thank you dear.

it is an all encompassing existence at times, but each little step forward seems to help me feel better about myself..that can't be totally bad, even if some politicians n family hate us, can it?

 

I'm thinking we need to seek happiness in spite of the haters, otherwise they win. we kill ourselves to avoid being what they despise and they write it off as we were insane or possessed. bullsh..t.

 

anyways, thank you dear for kind welcome.

hugs

missy