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Hello I'm 37 and have finally started the transition process after 20+ years of being too scared to try.

I'm still nervous as hell, but I just couldn't take hiding how I feel any longer.

I'm really looking forward to what I know is going to be a difficult, but hopefully amazing journey. 

 

Oh and sorry in advance if I use the wrong or outdated terms, though I hope I won't . 

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Welcome Claire! Glad you're here! I was so scared someone might find out who I am. I didn't really know, just hated my dirty little closet crossdressing secret. Then I found others like me here. Today I am comfortable in my transgender femme skin & yes, it is an amazing journey I can only imagine will get better. I hope you find the wonderful advice, support & acceptance here as I have.

 

Hugs!

Delcina 

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Hi, Claire! Welcome! Don't worry about using outdated terms. I worried about the same thing too when I first joined, but quickly found out it didn't matter. That's one of the many wonderful things about this community: in more ways than one, we all speak the same language! 😊 ––Rianon

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Welcome Claire.  I was getting some sheep in Culpepper VA a couple of weeks ago.  I found great help here some time ago.

You are not alone.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Welcome, Claire, from another relative newcomer to the journey!! There are so many wonderfully helpful and supportive people here. What an amazing journey it is.

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10 hours ago, Claire Heshi said:

I'm still nervous as hell, but I just couldn't take hiding how I feel any longer.

Hi @Claire Heshi! Welcome to our forum. I’m so happy that you found your way here. So many of us have come to this point in our lives where we need to make a decision like this. It eventually becomes such a burden to get up each day living the way society thinks we should be. We desire to live being our true selves. Hiding such a deep part of our core identity is not healthy and can only disrupt our happiness. Shame and guilt start ravaging our lives, relationships, hopes and dreams. Never doubt “truth”. I believe you made the right choice despite. Of course, there will always be some in society that feel the need to tell you who and what you are. Don’t listen to this rhetoric. You know yourself better than anyone!

 

Like many new endeavors, it can be nerve-racking in the beginning but I can tell you that the journey is so worth it in the long run. Life can be so fulfilling when living as you were always intended to live.

 

I look forward to reading more about you and seeing you blossom along the way. You have a wonderful journey ahead just waiting for you. Enjoy it.😀

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R🌷

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Hi Claire,

 

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here.

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf🐾

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Hi Claire you are definitely in the right place. I'm 38 years old and I'm tired of living in secret and putting up a front. I'm definitely  woman not a man. Unfortunately I'm getting an annulment because my current wife can't handle me being a woman. Hugs I wish you the best and good luck and looking  forward to seeing your posts.

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Thank you all :)

I've been cleared for HRT and I'm waiting for an appointment to get it prescribed plus tests and what not, but I'm so close now.

I can't really think of anything else right now, though the dysphoria pops up all the time now,I haven't a clue how or why I waited so long.

Sorry for  rambling 

 

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5 hours ago, Claire Heshi said:

I've been cleared for HRT

Congratulations @Claire Heshi on this uplifting news. May you have a smooth and fulfilling transition. You’ll soon reach new milestones and the feelings can be overwhelming! I’d enjoy reading about them if you’re willing to share them here. It’s an exciting time (and sometimes a little scary). Lots of change ahead. Enjoy it!

 

My Best,

Susan R🌷

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Gratz Claire

 

Finding this forum has given me courage to contact a gender help group to find out the access to a gender therapist.

I'm sure you will receive support here for your journey. 

 

Rob

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Hey Claire, nice ta meet cha. Glad you're getting the care you need.

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Yay I finally have my HRT appointment scheduled, it’s for late next month though. I also got my first voice training session scheduled, but for late August. I guess I’ll use the time to lose more weight, I’ve already lost over 50 pounds since March… around 150 to go. (I didn’t handle being in the closet well)

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