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Hi everyone. I'm Milyssa Leigh, currently in New Jersey but soon to be relocating to Colorado. I'm 59 years old and a recent widower. I used to crossdress over 20 years ago, but when I met my wife she was supportive at first, but over time that support started to dwindle. So I put that side of myself away for over 20 years. Now that I find myself on my own again, my feminine side has come back with a vengeance. I never thought I'd be here again as I thought it was a phase and I was over it. Well, I was not only proven wrong but Milyssa came back out with a vengeance. After spending more time, I've realized I'm transgendered and I'm starting my transition journey. I've been doing a LOT of research and talking to other women who've transitioned to understand what to expect moving forward. I also have to give big kudos to Jackie Rabbit for her YouTube channel which as been extremely informative with all the pros and cons of transition. I'm holding off until I move to Colorado this summer before I fully start my transition including therapy, electrolysis, and HRT. I also need to have conversations with my family. So I have a long road ahead of me. My biggest concern is that I'm starting so late in life. And while I know of other women who transitioned at a much older age than myself, it still bothers me that I've missed out on so much time.  In any case, I am looking to talk with other girls/women who have gone through the process to get the most first-hand information that I can so I know what to expect and can make the right decisions. I'd also like to meet women in Colorado to make friends and network.

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1 hour ago, Milyssa Leigh said:

My biggest concern is that I'm starting so late in life.

 

Welcome, Milyssa!

 

Haha!  59 is by no means too late to get started.  I was 62 when I realized that I was transgender, and many of our sisters were older than that.  I hear you about regretting the water under the bridge, but it is just that: water under the bridge.  What we can do is to make the years we have left (hopefully many) the best we can.

 

I am looking forward to seeing more of you around the forum.

 

Regards,

Kathy

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Welcome Milyssa!

 

I've only been here a month or so but the people on here are really awesome and you'll feel so welcome here and it's really a great place to get our questions answered and connect with the community.  

 

I hope you feel as welcome here as I have!

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Welcome Milyssa

2 hours ago, KathyLauren said:

I was 62 when I realized that I was transgender, and many of our sisters were older than that.

Yeah.  I was 68 when I started.

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Welcome dear.  Don't feel too bad about what you have missed.  I went full time at 63 and am one happy old lady as i near the 3/4 century mark.   Enjoy today it is beautiful to live ac dream at any age!

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Welcome to the forums!!! You'll find much information, support and friendship here  - I know I have. 

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Welcome aboard, Milyssa! 

 

I'm 60 and only just in the last 12 months, I am getting comfortable with myself. You're not alone. I have regrets with my timeline too. But remember this: Today is the first day of the rest of your life!

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Welcome Milyssa! Glad you're here! My condolences on the passing of your spouse. The journey is yours, to travel as long as you wish. This is how I am travelling mine. It works, from self-loathing closet crossdresser to today, loving being a silver haired transgender mamacita! I hope you find the wonderful advice, support & acceptance here as I have.

 

Hugs!

Delcina 

 

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I just recently announced on April 17th and it has been a lot of hurdles but that's mostly how the VA is. Nothing is quick. I already had to speak with my mental health doctor, primary care and therapist. The VA is still trying to find me a gender therapist. I just had my appointment with my endocrinologist and she said there's still more stuff to do before HRT. I just wished I started earlier. This forum has been very helpful and supportive. My family not so much.

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42 minutes ago, Ashley0616 said:

still more stuff to do before HRT.

Hmmm.  After I talked to the therapist once, she referred me to the endo who gave me the Rx for estradiol.  But I was already getting HRT from PP when I went to the VA.

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37 minutes ago, Ivy said:

Hmmm.  After I talked to the therapist once, she referred me to the endo who gave me the Rx for estradiol.  But I was already getting HRT from PP when I went to the VA.

I guess they added more stuff to it which doesn't surprise me. Someone got a kudos for making things harder. Just when you thought you were done with that ideology.  

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