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Koko S.

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okay to start i wanna before hand say im not used to talking about myself so please bere with me lol anyways, so to begin i'm koko as i said in the title (acual nickname i always had :)) i'm 25yo transgirl and from texas i just recently came out to 2 of my best close friends and thankfully they accepted me without question which is wonderful and didnt expect lol so, i have always crossdressed every chance i got growing up wearing my mama's clothes & makeup and never really understood why it felt natural i always loved to look cute and people around me always laughed or made fun of me for it even my grandma said plenty of times i shouldve been born a girl (pretty ironic thinking of it now lol) it wasnt in a nice way either so as i grew up i started repressing hard even tho i would still crossdress when alone honestly i felt like a broken freak and it got worst when i was a teen of 14-16 it got to the point i detested looking into a mirror and didnt really get it nor understand i didnt know what trans was during this time so it was a scary feeling not understanding then when i was 17 i met my first boyfriend and it all started to make sense, he treated me like the most beautiful girl in the world then i started to realise i really shouldve been born a girl so i did research on it and learn about it and it made sense why i was never comfable in my body but since i was in a particular situation i couldnt come out or anything so i buried it deep down inside until recently i started to get healthy physically & mentally as well after being in a dark place for awhile i finally accepted it  100% fully and now working tords to transitioning but its gonna be a long hard road lol so i been trying to look more fiminine like wearing nail polish & lipgloss, perfume etc. but im still not ready for going out completely dressed yet lol and my mom doesnt know im trans she doesnt even know i like men lol i really dont wanna have that convo lol i know she wouldnt accept me she loves me no doubt about it and will always but she said she would never accept that lol tho its ironic she paints my nails and doesnt mind me wearing women sleep pants lol but anyways, this is little about me lol im sorry this is rambly im not use to interductions lol and still getting used to this forum layout :) thank you so much for reading this~!! i look forward to talk with yall~!

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Welcome to the Forums Koko, it is always hard to begin talking about your True Self but you are in a group here that understands and stands ready to be on your side of things.

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33 minutes ago, VickySGV said:

Welcome to the Forums Koko, it is always hard to begin talking about your True Self but you are in a group here that understands and stands ready to be on your side of things.

thank you so much for your kind words : ) 

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Hey Koko, love the name. Thanks for sharing a bit about yourself... I'm pretty new here and have found this group very welcoming and safe. It feels good to get some of this stuff out in the open, eh? Keep writing! Welcome again to the forums...

 

Easy

 

 

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4 hours ago, April Marie said:

Hi, Koko, and welcome to Trans Pulse!!

thank you so much~! : )

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2 hours ago, EasyE said:

Hey Koko, love the name. Thanks for sharing a bit about yourself... I'm pretty new here and have found this group very welcoming and safe. It feels good to get some of this stuff out in the open, eh? Keep writing! Welcome again to the forums...

 

Easy

 

 

oh thank you very much : ) welcome to you as well! it really does :) im happy to hear this site is :) and ill try my best too lol :)

3 hours ago, MaybeRob said:

Hey Koko

 

Very good job on the intro.

 

MaybeRob/MaybeKate

thank you ^^ im glad it wasnt bad lol 

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8 hours ago, Koko S. said:

i know she wouldnt accept me she loves me no doubt about it and will always but she said she would never accept that lol

Hi @Koko S.! It’s great to have you here on our forum. Given what you wrote in your intro, your mom probably knows much more than she’s letting on. Mom’s are smart cookies and know many things about us that they themselves fear and may unknowingly suppress…sort of like we do! Your mom’s use of the word “never” is likely just a passive deterrent for you. She may and likely realizes you’ve had thoughts about your gender identity given your interest in some things feminine. Your mom is smart in understanding that not accepting, or worse, forbidding these small inclinations toward femininity might only make them more enticing to you. She may also believe (based on your age relative to hers) that this may be just a temporary “phase” for you. This is a common misconception that the current anti-trans media wants to promote for a political agenda.

 

If your mom loves you as much as I suspect, I think, in time, her love for you will endure no matter what your presentation, gender role, or sexual orientation is. When it comes down to it, she wants you to be happy and happy about who you are. Good moms are like that. Now this doesn’t mean the road ahead of you is going to be easy. You will at some point need to discuss these difficult topics often, civilly, honestly and with great patience and love. Any current beliefs, indoctrinations, or stereotypes against our community can be overcome with proper communication and information. Ignorance and negative propaganda regarding these transgender topics is at an all time high right now but try not to be discouraged. There is hope and many here are the proof that you can succeed  and live with the freedom and joy that brings.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R🌷

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8 hours ago, Susan R said:

Hi @Koko S.! It’s great to have you here on our forum. Given what you wrote in your intro, your mom probably knows much more than she’s letting on. Mom’s are smart cookies and know many things about us that they themselves fear and may unknowingly suppress…sort of like we do! Your mom’s use of the word “never” is likely just a passive deterrent for you. She may and likely realizes you’ve had thoughts about your gender identity given your interest in some things feminine. Your mom is smart in understanding that not accepting, or worse, forbidding these small inclinations toward femininity might only make them more enticing to you. She may also believe (based on your age relative to hers) that this may be just a temporary “phase” for you. This is a common misconception that the current anti-trans media wants to promote for a political agenda.

 

If your mom loves you as much as I suspect, I think, in time, her love for you will endure no matter what your presentation, gender role, or sexual orientation is. When it comes down to it, she wants you to be happy and happy about who you are. Good moms are like that. Now this doesn’t mean the road ahead of you is going to be easy. You will at some point need to discuss these difficult topics often, civilly, honestly and with great patience and love. Any current beliefs, indoctrinations, or stereotypes against our community can be overcome with proper communication and information. Ignorance and negative propaganda regarding these transgender topics is at an all time high right now but try not to be discouraged. There is hope and many here are the proof that you can succeed  and live with the freedom and joy that brings.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R🌷

thank you so much for the words of encouragement! :) i didnt relized any of this and i think your 100% right, i will have the conversation at some point and what you said actually help me feel better about it so thank you again! 

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Welcome to TransgenderPulseForums Koko,

 

You're among friendly like minded people here.

 

Best wishes, stay positive, and motivated,

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

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12 hours ago, Mmindy said:

Welcome to TransgenderPulseForums Koko,

 

You're among friendly like minded people here.

 

Best wishes, stay positive, and motivated,

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

thank you so much for the kinds words and welcome mindy~!

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Hi koko, Im actually newer than you, but welcome all the same. I hope we can both benefit from what looks to be an awesome site. XX

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Welcome Koko.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Welcome Koko I think that because she loves you and she will accept you for who you are. I'm a trans woman myself at 38 but I still find women attractive. I'm glad you have someone to go out with. It has definitely taken a while to find someone for me and I'm in cloud 9. 

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