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Beginsat43

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Hello, all! As another in the long parade of introductory postings let me say howdy to everyone here.

 

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I've lived 44 years on these seas thanks to the grace of all who are lead by their heart out of compassion and mercy for me. I certainly haven't piloted my ship with any star in mind. My boat has been without an oarsman my entire life, as I have been dragged along behind my own ship by my own indecision as soon as it was christened. Now waterlogged and thirsty, rubbed raw by salt and sun, I am crawling up that rope, hand over hand to seize the wheel and turn this vessel to dry land.

 

I'm a bit different than the younger folks you might have seen online these recent years. I attempted transition nearly 25 years ago but was not sincere enough to stay with it. In those days I was unaware that there were others like me. I thought I was just some deviant with some unrecognized fetish and shamed myself back into the closet again. I have now finally reconciled my collective thoughts and desires and have put in 14 months on HRT so far and I have full intent to keep going.

 

I'm a military veteran, live in NE Texas, am libertarian/conservative minded, deeply spiritual but not religious, and have spoken with my family about my plans to live differently than I have to this point. I'm still in that awkward in-between stage, in therapy, trying to come to terms within myself, that it is ok to go out without clearly passing as a female. At nearly 250 lbs I'm not happy with my weight and really don't like the kind of options available to plus sizers like myself.

 

I've been very lucky to have met another in a similar situation to myself nearby and she's been a god send to me, so in turn I'd like to offer myself to whatever degree I can to anyone in NE Texas that needs a friend to talk to or spend time with, so long as it doesn't create problems between family. Thank you for reading.

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Welcome to Trans Pulse, hon.  I hope that you find lots of support and friendship in these forums, and I welcome your contributions to the threads as well.  I'm glad you have a friend IRL there in Texas.  Please look around the forums and post wherever you find something of interest.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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On 12/13/2023 at 10:14 PM, Beginsat43 said:

... have spoken with my family about my plans to live differently than I have to this point. ...

Hi! Thank you so much for sharing. I just love that phrase above that you wrote. It really resonates with me, as I am just beginning my new life after saying "yes" to the feminine being in the mirror who asked me last August, "Are you EVER going to let me live?"

 

-Timi

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